A Conscious Work and a Science
Dying mystically is a matter of a conscious choice and
conscious work. Nonetheless there is a science or a procedure involved.
The process of the death of an ‘I’ or a defect may vary
between each individual, however that process even though it appears to be
different passes through these five very broad stages.
An Exception
I would just like to say at this moment before we get too
far into the topic of the five broad stages of mystical death, that in
esotericism, there are always exceptions, and in the case of mystical death
there are certainly exceptions. More will be covered regarding this later on in
this post, see the section Kabbalistical Barks.
Five Broad Stages
The five broad stages through which one moves through when
working for the death of an ego or ‘I’ are:
1.) Observation.
2.) Separation.
3.) Comprehension.
4.) Repentance.
5.) Elimination.
Note, Master Samael made these a little simpler, instead of
five steps he gave three. He gave us: Observation, Comprehension and
Elimination. Of course he was right, really comprehension is separation and
repentance, so the steps of separation, comprehension and repentance really
fall under comprehension. Why? Because separation, comprehension and repentance,
are essentially all comprehension, but different (higher) octaves of
comprehension.
Observation
This is the process of getting to know the ego or ‘I’ that
you want to eliminate. The purpose of this type of observation is to come to
comprehend and later eliminate the ego under study.
We have to come to know the environment the ego manifests
in, the impressions that trigger it and of course what is crucial, is that we come
to know its way of thinking.
We also have to come to know how this way of thinking
influences the emotional and motor centres and we have to know this ego’s main
arguments, justifications, logic, protests, likes, dislikes, expectations (should
and should nots) etc.
Knowing the ego well leads us naturally to comprehension.
Separation
This is really the first step of comprehension because here
is where we come to understand that what has been bothering us is really an
ego, an ‘I’, a fragment of our psychology, a psychological person and overall
something that is not us or not the whole of us anyway, but rather a visitor or
conditioned fragment of our psychology that is triggered (externally or
internally), and is strong and stubborn and stays in our human machine for a
long time.
This is where we come to be able to separate that ego or ‘I’
from our mind, from our attention, from our human machine and from our main psychology.
We finally see that it is an ego and we are not that ego and
other people are not to blame for our uncomfortable feelings but rather that ego
is, and furthermore we sometime in the past created it. We essentially gain the
understanding that allows us to start to not identify with that ego.
Comprehension
In this stage we come to understand the ego much more
deeply. We understand its role and its function in our life, we come to see what
it is used for in our life and what it has been created to do for us. We may
even remember when and where we created it.
We may even be able to see that we don’t need it and that we
can use the essence and the work to solve the situations that this ego in the past,
has been used to solve.
We also come to know the logic of the ego, which is really
the core of the ego. It is the sum of its concepts or it is main concept and
reasoning. It is the logic or idea or concept or upon which it feels and acts
the way it does. If we are able to prove the logic wrong honestly and sincerely
inside ourselves we deliver the ego a huge blow.
Note: Logic of the
Ego.
Please note, I will write very soon posts dedicated
exclusively to the logic of the ego. Watch out for these posts in the near
future.
Repentance
Repentance is where essentially we come to understand deeply
that the ego is wrong, that it is not correct and that we can do better with
the essence, the work and the Being or the parts of our Being. We also may feel
sorry for the actions of this ego when we really come to understand that it is
wrong.
A part of repentance is renunciation where we through
comprehension see that the ego is not needed and that the things or values that
the ego brings to us can be replaced by the essence and the Being. In
renunciation we essentially renounce to the values (the feelings or things that
we like) that the ego brings us.
Note: Values of the
Ego
Please note, I have written some post on repentance and
renunciation, however in the near future I will write posts dedicated to finding
the values of the ego.
Elimination
This is a very important step, this is where really the ego
is executed or finally made dead. The previous steps are marvellous in that
they separate the ego from ourselves, allow us to control the ego completely,
they give us triumph over the ego and they exile the ego from our psychology
and from our human machine. But they do not destroy or dissolve the ego it
remains alive and continues to bother us. The step of elimination is the final
solution to the problem of the ego, this is where our particular Divine Mother
destroys the ego and liberates the essence that is trapped inside it.
Then the essence that has been trapped returns to the body
of free essence that we have and adds its light and wisdom to the wisdom and
light of the already free essence. The interesting wisdom that is acquired from
the newly freed essence is the wisdom of how that piece of essence got trapped
in the ego.
Note: Divine
Mother
Kabbalistical Barks
I would like to make a short digression here and explain a
little what kabbalistical barks are. These barks or shells are egos that by the
grace of our Divine Mother and the Divine Law are eliminated for us, or
decapitated for us even when we have not passed through the previously listed five
stages of eliminating an ego. They are called barks because the Divine Law and the
Divine Mother extract the essence from them leaving only the shell or bark or
outer skin of the ego. This bark decomposes in time.
This I want to stress can happen in a person but it is
certainly not the norm. This favour is usually done for us when that ego is so
strong and it is beyond our comprehension and it is harming us severely.
Summary
Here we have laid out the very basic structure of how to
eliminate the ego. Master Samael wrote so much about it and the posts in this
blogspot (
mysticaldeath.blogspot.com) are dedicated to it. I sincerely hope that this has been of some use
to you. If not please write to me using marianeptunus
@gmail.com to tell
me how to make it better. Thanks in advance if you do, do this.
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