This “I” is worth working on. All because it brings one much pain. Even when pleased, this “I” feels a kind of teary, happy pain, which is something very different to the plenitude and happiness of our own essence, that is not tainted by pain. This “I” is embroiled in the manifestations of the “I’s” of pride, self-love, self-importance, self-compassion etc. When rejected, when abandoned, when neglected, when abused, when treated harshly the pain that we feel mainly comes from this ego of self-sentimentalism. We may be very hard on ourselves but considerate of others. As we can control our own psychological pain but we can not control the pain of others. It is to see ourselves as precious, poor, little, handicapped, disadvantaged, incapable, needing help, a dear person, a good and kind person, etc. etc. When we see ourselves this way we can not understand how others can reject us, treat us harshly, hurt us, etc. Obviously, others do not see us this way do...
Make knowledge consciousness. Acting now makes knowledge consciousness. As the consciousness is now. Light is consciousness. Light can transform darkness. Light shining in the darkness brings change. In change there is joy. Knowing and using the light is Gnostic wisdom.