Learn and Integrate - (4170)

This is something I am learning the last couple of days.

I am feeling strongly that we need to learn from what is happening in our life right now or what has just happened.

The book I feel we need to read is what is happening in our life or what has happened.

My observation is that we tend to ignore what's happening or has happened in our life and read, listen and watch all sorts of other books, audio and video.

The text, audio and video we read, listen and watch can be great and very helpful, but it just may not be what we really just now.

Our life is always wanting to teach us something and if we don't pay attention to it we really miss the chance to learn so many valuable lessons. 

Our life though is very forgiving, it repeats the lessons often, sometimes with a sprinkling of pain to intice us to learn the lesson this time round.

I think that we would want for ourselves to move on and learn many new and other kinds of lessons, not just fail to learn the same old lesson.

So in practice what I am doing is going over life and doing many retrospections picking up first of all the things I was told that I did wrong. Becoming conscious of the correction as deep as I can, reflecting deeply on it and resolving to change and put the correction into action.

Moving lessons into action is the start of integrating the lesson into ourselves. Repeated action brings more and more the lesson into our nature - thus slowly integrating it into ourselves. 

If we were not corrected then see all that went wrong or was painful and then look for what caused that. There is a gem of a lesson waiting there for us to learn as well.

The thing that I am understanding is that if we don't deliberately focus on the events of our life that we live and have lived with the intention to extract learning, we are not going to learn anything, and all these learning opportunities will pass us by and we'll end making the same mistakes over and over again, sometimes with more pain.

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Where Gratitude Really has Power - (4168)

For me now, where gratitude has its power is in transforming the negative.

The real value is outside of duality. That is, it does not only work for the positive things we receive. That's how the ego works in one side of duality.

This is really where we need it working for us, on the negatiove side. Helping us to transform the negative into consciousness.

To see that each fight, each argument, each negative impression, each 'no', each difficult time, each insult, is if we decide to work on it is a valuable chance to get something for our consciousness. 

When we work, we transform those things mentioned above into a gift. A valuable gift that we give ourselves - the gift of more consciousness. 

Feeling the new awareness we automatically feel grateful.

But where gratitude comes into the picture is before we work, just when we receive the negative impression. Because gratitude being conscious, it knows that eveything can be transformed and for gratitude to be, it knows it must bring the work so that we can transform the negative impression for it to manifest, which means for us to be grateful.

This is not false gratitude that abounds everywhere - people saying thank you all the time but not feeling it.

Gratitude knows or is open to the fact that a negative thing can be a positive in disguise later down the track.

End (4168).

Vengance is the Lazy Way - (4167)

Vengance is something that exists in the life of the human being. There is the desire for vengance, the drive for it that is felt by human beings...

Vengance has been sought out countless times in history and most likely countless times in our own personal history, in varying degress from the subtle that only we know to the very obvious that all can see...

Because it is felt in us while living life here on Earth it is very good to know about its nature, to the extent of being able to replace it with something else much better in quality after we have comprehended it.

In short, it is really good to know how to work the feelings of vengance.

Venegance appears in us when we were not able to transform what happened to us. I know it can be really hard and almost it is bordering on the 'too much' to say that... But vengance has to have a reason for appearing.

We sometimes believe that some things should not be transformed. Even though it is so hard to contemplate this, those things that we believe we should not be transformed are the things that are going to give us the very best things if we do transform them...

We can hide in vengance and even make our life purpose... For the rest of our life or for a stage of our life...

Anyway it is better to face whatever we feel than seek vengance. To feel vengance is easier. To face the casues of the hurt is something more difficult but something that is more rewarding and fulfilling, and longer lasting.

When we seek vengance we will learn that it's pleasure is short lived and afterwards we are again in debt and feel miserable, the resentment continues, but if we don't seek venagance and transform the hurt, we will learn ever so much more. 

We will learn much more on top of the basic lesson, which is that vengance does not transform us. We will learn vengance is lazy, a cop out and does not pay as much as we thought it would.

End (4167).

Self-Forgiveness - (4168)

Introduction

That feeling of being inherently flawed or 'not good enough' or 'unworthy' comes from, I very resepctfully say, from a lack of self-forgiveness. I mean not the cheap kind that you'll find in modern spiritual self-help healing workshops but the real kind that has to do with awakening and addressing the cause of certain errors, which takes its time. This may not seem quite right but reflect a little maybe it is true for you...

I very respectfully say those feelings mentioned above come from having done something that we now regret and lament. The regret then causes us to turn on ourselves, judging and attacking ourselves in many different ways...

This post is just some notes for when we find that attribute which we could call self-forgiveness, difficult to invoke.

We may not like forgiving ourselves. We may think it is wrong. We may think that we will keep causing harm if we forgive ourselves. We may think we don't deserve it. We don't know how to forgive ourselves. We may think it is nonsense even. This is all beacsue we havn't got a real picture about what self-forgiveness is. There is something real in it, there is real work in it and awakening/healing in it. To awaken is to heal.

A Start Somewhere

Often we can be inwardly at war against ourselves, going against ourselves quite often until the day we forgive ourselves. We did something and we suffered because of that but and that is gone yet we keep hitting ourselves becasue we havn't really forgiven ourselves.

I repeat forgiving oursleves is about work. It is to accept that we did it and to take responsibility for that and work on the cause.

In the worst cases what happens with that war against ourselves is that the regret or hurt wins over us. Just quietly you know this can’t be we can’t be a slave of pain but instead in our Being we are to be over pain.

Once again in the worst of cases the most difficult thing about that war on ourselves is that it’s not only in the mind but we feel the regret or pain intensely in our body, at times in our stomach, and heart, even the body as a whole. 

Behind what we did in the past there was some kind of unmet need. That was there like a pain behind what we did. If we can find that pain, then we can start with transforming and forgiving ourselves. Because it was that we were in pain that we acted that way. 

With regards to resentment, it is useful to see what will happen if we stop believing or thinking I or someone else was wrong? What is the worst thing that could happen to us? Nothing really bad will happen to us will it? Only joy in our heart is what will happen…

It is easier to be unforgiving than face our hurt or regret fully. Vengance is what we take refuge in instead of forgiving. Vengance against others or ourselves.

We can't know joy because we can't forgive... 

To forgive is to open, heal and free our hearts...

Forgiving is dynamic and means we are not willing to separate ourselves or someone from our heart. We can't forgive if we take people or ourselves out of our heart all the time...

The thing with self-forgiveness is it is not instant, takes time and has like we could say its price. The price is a new love that washes away the old ways that caused the errors we regret. It is also deep acceptance and a decision to transform the cause. As the cause becomes more and more modified self-forgiveness grows and we heal more and more. 

When we have Self-Forgiveness

When we forgive ourselves we act in much healthier ways and we reach out to genuinely help others. These two things happen together and make up the process of forgiving ourselves. This is honestly what people do when they forgive themselves, they help others. 

When are in the process of forgiving ourselves we can't ignore our inner Being and the Divine Law. That we say sorry to our Inner Being and the Divine Law and ask for forgiveness and work to dissolve the cause.

When we have self-forgiveness and we do something harmful to ourselves or others, what we do is, we just go to work on the cause. We know how to work and what to do and we go about it quickly without delay and we do it with intensity.

End (4168).

Know and Trust your Consciousness - (4166)

Introduction

I think that we have to get to know how our very own consciousness works.

Especially to know when it manifests and to know how to get it to manifest. 

This post presents a few notes in relation to this.

Slow

Maybe your consciousness is slow to work. Maybe it is quite quick. Your consciousness may take a few hours, a few days for it to start to give you answers, for it to open up, for it to release new insights and understanding about a problem, an issue, a difficulty or something you want to understand or may be it is different. However it is, it is very good to know it.

To know that your consciousness is slow in working, for example is good. If your consciousness is slow that means you have to wait and be patient. The reassuring thing is that it will work, you just need to wait and give it time.

So Natural

Our consciousness is so natural when it works. It is not sensational nor spectacular. Well sometimes but usually it is so simple and natural that we can not suspect that it was our consciousness that just gave us an answer.

It can manifest as an idea, as a new insight, as seeing something that you hadn't seen before, as a new angle on things, a new perspective, a new point of view, a new attitude, as stillness, as clarity, as the conviction to take action, as renewed strength, a new positivity, as something fresh that brings to us understanding, mini or micro revelations and a new approach as well as a solution... and the list goes on...

How

The first thing is to STOP!

Stopping the mind and the personality and any egoic process (that stops when we stop the mind anyway) in the moment on the spot. 

Doing this gives our consciousness the marvelous opportunity for it to work. We need to stop so to give it a chance to work for us. If we don't stop it can't work!

For example if we are worried about an event coming up in the future we have to tell ourselves: "ok lets just stop projecitng andf thinking right now, let's let go of all of this and relax, calm down and try very hard not to think." To even forget things is better, but that is a bit hard, but good if we can. It just requires more trust in our consciousness than we are used to giving it. We tend to trust our calculating and figuring out mind more than our consciousness.

Trust

We come to the conclusion that we have to trust our consciousness. Trust in its quality, trust in the time that it takes will be ok and trust that it will actually work. 

When we know the particular way in which our consciousness works we can begin to trust more in it. It actually does work and what it comes up with is really very good.

Just make sure that you stop and give your consciousness a chance!

End (4166).

Love and Hate Common Points - (4165)

Introduction

This post highlights the places where love and hate are direct opposites.

Direct Opposites

Hatred is blind but love is clairvoyant. Love allows us to understand the teachings and work to receive them but hatred does not allow us to understand them nor work to receive them.

Love draws us closer to God, hatred distances us.

Love brings us closer to people while hatred distances us.

Love transforms while hatred deforms.

Love unites and creates while hatred destroys and disintegrates.

More to come...

End (4165).

Mind Attacks Emotion Defends - (4159)

Here is a good teaching from m.m.m which rings very true in practical life, in very, let's say special moments.

"The mind attacks and the emotion defends".

The mind usually always attacks. When we are in the mind, with the wheels of the mind churning we are inevitably going to end up in attack mode. The mind usually always protests and complains and that is very close to attacking. 

When the consciousness or the work or the understanding of the heart are not accessible the mind takes over and starts attacking, even as objectively and truthfully as it can.

The emotion is the one that defends. We defend what is close or dear to us. The emotion is what is deeper in us so when what is deep in us is threatened, the emotion is always activated. Our image could be very dear to us for example.

We all obviously take our life emotionally because it is deep and dear to us. What agitates the mind and produces an attack of the mind is not really so deep and important to us. It is rather just a mental position or mental pattern attached to an ego that has become annoyed. 

There is a difference between attacking and defending and a difference between mind and emotion. To defend is to keep things as is and not allow harm, but to attack is to change, modify and often defeat. Attacking is karmic but defending is not.

Attacking can back fire and lead to being attacked via a counter attack but defending can be successful or not. When successful, an attack is deflected but if not successful, an attack causes harm. Still the harm can be repaired. 

What is good about defending is that if we defend ourselves consciously (which implies a kind of emptiness and no-reaction) we can receive something for our consciousness. This does not happen with attacking. Because the mind, ego and personality are too active to engage the consciousness.

In any case it is good to know how to defend oneself physically and psychologically. I would definitely say more psychologically because that is what we encounter every day. 

Psychological defence is really non-identification, separation from the subconscious and the transformation of impressions. All of which are conscious actions.

Often defending mechanically against an attacker can mean the start of a war. Sometimes it is not useful to start a war and sometimes something of a war just has to be, but not a silly egoic war but an interaction managed and solved with a higher ethic or a higher state of consciousness or solved even by magical means. 

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Love and Hatred Notes - (4166)

Introduction

This post is a series of notes about love and hatred. 

When you read all these points please don't think that I am embodying these points of hatred and love. I know about hatred from experience, I know I have certain "I's" of hatred that I am working on and I know like all of us I have love inside but I am far from embodying these points on love. Eventhough I am writing these points from a very imperfect position, they come from the teachings and are valid. I hope that they will resonate with you and be of some help.  

I think the point that: "one gram of love, used wisely and in the right moment allows tonnes of hatred to be dissolved" is the most important point of this whole post.

Hatred

Introduction

We may think that we don't hate but when reading these points we may see that on a subtle level there is some work for us to do.

⛒There are certain "I's" of hatred that live in the psyche of human beings. These "I's" are devoted in a focused and deliberate way to the processes of blocking, thwarting, hurting, delaying, resisting etc. Anyway, each person to see what is inside of them and how those psychological elements function.

⛒Hatred makes our inner development difficult. It stops and blocks it. This is because the nature of hatred is not of the Being in us, but of another nature such as of the infernos.

⛒Hatred makes our aura dark. It also aligns us with more negative influences and forces. 

⛒Hatred is very dense and it pulls us down whenever we try to ellevate or lift ourselves up towards our Inner Divinity.

⛒Hatred makes whitening our waters very difficult. The key to whiten the waters is the yearning for the Being and remembering the Being. Hatred takes us away from those two things.

⛒Hatred will not allow us to develop the virtues needed to awaken the sacred fire within us.

⛒Hatred does not allow us to have inner peace and to receive the messages from the superior worlds and our Inner Being. We need peace in our mind to receive the messages from above. Hatred keeps our mind churning in endless cycles of hurt and hurting.

⛒Hatred is very contagious, and often affects others negatively and creates an atmosphere of disharmony.

⛒Hatred does not produce empathy or sincere fraternity. Instead it produces distrust and a bad taste that stays stuck in people's mouths.

⛒Hatred takes us away from the light and the Beings of the light. Because the darkness that hatred generates is incompatible with them.

⛒Hatred does not allow us to be pardoned by our inner Logoic triangle. If we hate, our inner Trinity can not pardon us. Our Kether, our Intimate Christ and our Holy Spirit can not do that for us.

⛒Hatred does not allow us to pray the 'Our Father', and be pardoned as it is written in the "Our Father" prayer. As we can't pardon others whom we hate, how can we be pardoned?

⛒Hatred does not allow us to understand the spiritual teachings nor work towards and make any kind of sacrifice to receive them.

⛒Hatred is a friend of venegence, and through it we can do terrible things and say we did it all in the name of justice, equality, fairness, honour and even love etc. 

⛒Hatred is resentment organised. This is meaningful as it says hatred begins with resentment. This is so important!

⛒Hatred can become a terribly strong infernal force and a powerful bridge to connect to the infernal regions and win the favour of negative entities, and that is no good! This can even happen without us knowing…

⛒Hatred kills love and dissolves marriages and family homes turning the atmosphere into one of tension, in which only worse and worse attitudes develop and fester.

⛒Hatred takes us directly to ingratitude and ingratitude easily leads us into very negative actions, with treason possibly being one of them.

⛒Hatred leads to that which has 'no-reason', that is to that which is a kind of destruction without reason.

⛒Hatred distorts our word and causes us to curse, swear and express very negative things. Which in the end all come against us causing us a lot of embarassment and disgrace.

⛒I have heard it being said that the karma for hatred is blindness or deformity. As hatred deforms what it touches and what comes close to it.

⛒Hatred makes us, once our 108 existences are finished to take up bodies in animals that are very violent and destructive.

⛒Hatred is something that is easily transmitted to others in a mass gathering. Others catch it easily and it turns physical into violence, vandalism, serious injury and police arrests.

⛒Hatred combined with jealousy ends in domestic violence.

⛒Hatred combined with pride ends in treason and is capable of leading a person to betray their guru or spiritual guide.

⛒Hatred combined with envy makes us very cruel and ill-willed towards our fellow man.

⛒Hatred makes us to go far from the Father we have in secret and when the distance from the father is too great, we the son fall into disgrace. 

⛒Hatred often lies to get what it wants.

⛒Hatred ruins the front chakra, in other words it destroys clairvoyance. It does this by introducing a certain poison into our blood stream called Imperil.

more to come tomorrow...

Love

Introduction

Reading these points may help us to see that we indeed do have love or we may actually lack love. As always, these are interesting points to know ourselves through.

💗Love allows to withstand great ordeals which can take us closer to the realm where our Inner Being dwells.

💗With only a gram of love, used wisely and at the right moment we can dissolve tonnes of hatred.

💗The love we have in our heart allows us to be listened to, helped and rescued by our Intimate Christ.

💗When true repentance has surged forth in us, then the love we have in our heart allows us to be helped and later redeemed. 

💗The love Beelzebub had in his heart for his disciples got him noticed and allowed him to be rescued from the darkness and the destuction he was heading for. His case showed that we need to activate love inside of us to be helped! 

💗Love calls love...

💗Love is fed with love. Love is not fed with hatred! We make that silly mistake all too often, expecting others to love us when we have only dealt them cards of bitter moments.

💗The Love of God is manifested through His Divine wife, the Cosmic Mother. 

💗Love is an energy that belongs to God as Mother and it is a force that is enternal and unlimited.

💗Love gives the beauty with which God as Mother Nature has created the worlds.

💗Conscious love helps us to understand that it - love, is at the base of all the virtues.

💗Love understands, withstands and surrenders for the benefit of all. It is disinterested, does not boast of itself and only wants the happiness of others.

💗Love transforms while hatred deforms. 

more to come tomorrow...

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Forgiveness Notes - (4158)

Foregiveness is a gift that we give to ourselves.

Foregiveness is more for us than the other person. This is so very important to understand.

It is the gift of giving ourselves peace. The gift of closing an issue within ourselves. The gift that allows ourselves to heal. The gift of accepting what was done and giving ourselves the green light to move on...

To forgive is to unburden ourselves. To forgive is to trust in God and in the Divine Law, that if there was something done wrong to us, it will be made right by God and by the Divine Law at the right time.

It is a gift of healing our interior of so much bitterness and allowing an opening for light to enter.

Maybe it was because we did something wrong a long time ago and what happened just recently was a learning for us...It is easier to forgive when it is this way, because that person took the role of helping us to learn.

For the other it is also a gift. It is the gift of a clean slate, a second chance. It could also be the gift of ending much guilt and unrest.

It is a sign of the nobility of the essence to forgive. 

Even we can see the word forgive has 'give' in it, because when we forgive we give something to ourselves and to others.

With each gift we give we also receive.

For each gift that is received, there is the wise or unwise use of that received gift...

The wise use could be where we use the gift of forgiveness from another person as a second chance to not mess up again.

To forgive is to wipe entries away from our psychological accounting book.

It seems that it is more correct that foregivenss comes from our essence and maybe from deeper within ourselves than any ego, because to forgive is not in the interest of many egos.

When we forgive others we can pray that special line of 'Our Father' and receive His blessing, which says that if we forgive others, God - our Being will forgive us.

We too need to be forgiven by our Inner Being...This we ignore...

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Ethics of the Path what Distinguishes It - (4163)

It seems after some exposure to other spiritual schools and systems that a spiritual kind of ethics is missing.

There are so many spiritual movements that speak about 'a learning', 'a journey', 'neither right or wrong', 'all in the universe', 'the flow', 'what feels natural' etc.

But what of an ethics, they seem not to have a really clearly defined set of ethics. Yet the principles and laws of any ethics are always clear...

They really don't like abiding by an ethics. A loose or looser kind of ethics yes, they are comfortable with that and talk about that, but who can guaranteee the sincere seeker that that looser kind of ethics is the ethics of the path or an ethics sufficient enough to walk the one secret path back to the Inner Being?

Ethics may seem to be so rigid...

Often that perception that ethics is rigid produces an unpleasant feeling of restriction: "I can't do that, what?". Most of the time it is an egoical desire that wants to do that anyway...we may know that or we may not know that...

What is the real freedom? The freedom to do what the ego or essence or anything in us wants to do? Some may say yes and of course it is. But a realer, deeper freedom is one where you can chose not to suffer! And you don't suffer! 

Mind you if what we chose caused suffering or an imbalance we will suffer if not now but later...

In some tantra schools there is the knowledge of transmutation and practical techniques to do it, but little of ethics. 

There is the thinking: "what is free is right, and less ethics means freedom, there is no right or wrong only energy, therefore less ethics is good and the right comfortable way" - "everything is all ok, transmute mostly but losing some is ok". If you are a man you can enjoy a few different women etc. there's nothing wrong with that". But who can say such a method or way will lead one to the freedom in the long run?

I think anyone with a bit of knowledge of the esoteric teachings can see that when the Real Being is free from karma then comes more of the real freedom...

Being free to do what you want completely and then win the abyss and continue to try and do what you want is not freedom, because in each of moment we spend in the abyss we are losing life. Just like when are identified and we descend into our abyss we are not free and we are losing the enjoymernt of our real life free as an essence.

End (4163).

Ethics and the Path - (4161)

The path has its ethics. I don't think we can deny this...

The ethics of the path is what distinguishes it from so many other spiritual schools and movements.

There exists what is called cosmic moral laws, which are a part of the path or are not indifferent to the path. Cosmic moral laws are the psychological aspect of the cosmic laws, that's all.

The ethics of the path is its foundation and its strength.

A person upholding the ethics of the path is his or her strength, protection and guide.

One could even say that the path is a gradual incarnation of the ethics of the spirit.

What are ethics? It is the upholding of the principles and laws of the spirit and the cosmos.

It only makes sense to say that ethics are to be upheld. If the sun were to forget about upholding its ethic of giving of itself everyday, life in the solar system would suffer. But the Sun never fails in giving - it never fails its ethic.

Just one of the ethics of the path says that if the Kundalini is awake and there is the loss of the sexual energy then the kundalini will descend depending on the degree of the fault.

Technical skills and ethics are very different.

Normally we don't pay attention to morals because we know they change and depend upon time and space. But ethics are really different. They prevail over space and time, personality and mind.

The ethics of the path are the ethics of perfection. There are degrees and degrees. The ethic of the work is the work towards its ultimate goal which is the perfection of the different parts of the Being.

The dissolution of the ego supports ethics and the ethics of the path requires the dissolution of the ego.

End (4161). 

What we Give to the Being is More Important! - (4160)

What we give is always more important!

I, we, can forget that very practical truth.

We ask many things from the Being and that for us is important. But in the reality I respectfully think that what we give the Being is much more important.

From what we give to the Being, It can help us! The work and the good quality of the work that we do is what helps us and gives the Being the ability to help us. Without merit or cosmic capital it is hard to receive help. Cosmic capital is earnt always we are told, by giving. 

The best quality of giving, is when we give our spiritual work, investing several of our values and working with consistency and constancy. Then we can receive the best!

For our psychological well-being what we give is generally more important! When psychologically we  are positioned on the side of receiving we are worse off. That is the position to end up suffering and to be dependent and inevitably the one 'hard done by' i.e. the victim. 

To the work what we give is more important.

To the Law of karma what we give is much more important!

To any enterprise what we give is more important! Because as everyone says the more you put into something the more you get out of it.

To get ahead, the way is to give more than receive. If we receive more we will certainly never grow! If we give and receive the same amount we will never move forward either! Conclusion: give more to receive!

End (4160). 

Putting Pressure on Yourself - Consciously and Unconsciously - (4164)

Two ways to put pressure on yourself: consciously and unconsciously.

We have to put pressure on ourselves to change. When we have a reason and a goal that is objective, that is spiritual that is for our betterment, the pressure we apply on ourselves is conscious.

When we are motivated by the subconscious or by some egoical desire the pressure we apply on ourselves to be a certain way is not fully conscious and things that are not fully conscious produce adverse results. That is results that we may not have wished for or hoped for.

Usually those adverse results are a kind of suffering, inner conflict, inner confusion, unhappiness, stress, distancing from ourselves, lack of remembering of ourselves, a lack of being at peace with ourselves and a loss of certain values that we have...

End (4164).

Can't Serve Two Masters - (4162)

 We can serve two masters for a while. But there comes a time when it becomes difficult...

By two masters I mean two masters that are of different or even opposing qualities. Like matter and the spirit or the ego and the essence or the subconscious and the consciousness. 

After a while of serving two masters. We will find that we are not really going anywhere. We will find that we are neither devoted to one or the other and neither of the two are happy and nor are we.

We know well that concentration is what counts. Definition and devotion are really concentration.

If it is true in our heart that we want one for example the path, we will find that we need concentration in the path and serving the other master is not helping things inside of ourselves and maybe outside of ourselves too. 

We may find ourselves conflicted, weak, distracted, lacking depth, just keeping afloat...  

Then we will understand really the wisdom behind what Jesus said and was recorded in the bible.

There is also the situation as well where the love we have gets shared or goes from one master to the other and then inside of ourselves a conflict begins and later when we want to get anywhere in the path we can't because we have our love skattered. A skattered love is not what is useful.

Essentially the wisdom behind what Jesus said is that by serving two masters, we skatter our values, we spread our values too thin serving two masters and then comes miserable inner conflict. 

When we skatter our values we also actually lose our values. To serve two masters is really to lose our values, which are the values of the Being. 

The key is to unite different aspects all under the one master.

End (4162).

Why the Divine Mother and the Dissolution - (4156)

Begging the Divine Mother to dissolve any conditioning of our essence accelerates the dissolution of that conditioning resulting in freeing the essence. 

This key was not given to us because the mother is the closest thing to us and the easiest thing for us to relate to. No! It is because esoterically it is the most effective way. 

Who God damn it has more wisdom and authentic power over our inner universe than the mother of our inner universe. She is in each atom of our inner universe. She is the power of life and the power of death and has the authentic right of the absolute to give life and take life. She is the mother of the essence, what the essence comprehends and makes redundant she can break down. She is an electronic force that can pierce any egoic molecular composition. The ego is molecular and She is electronic.

Where we can’t undo the conditioning She can. 

She is more powerful than us and can work quicker than we can. She is 30,000 times quicker than the mind and ego.

The key of the Divine Mother was given to Master Samael to help him because he had reached his limit.

If we think we don’t need our Divine Mother it is simply because we havn’t come close to reaching our limit. We just havn’t worked deep enough yet.

The Divine Mother is the energy of creation the fire of creation and the fire creates and destroys, radically at that.

If all those who dissolved their conditionings, freed their essence and finished the great work had to beg and beg their Divine mother to dissolve the ego what are we doing believing in others who have not dissolved all their egos and have not finished the great work and say not to work with the Divine Mother? To me that does not make sense it is against the timeless tradition, what backing up of the mystery school teachings do such people have to say that? To me such people are misleading souls. That is not a kind thing to do to the essences and what reward can one expect delaying the spiritual work of others?

The other parts of the Being do not harness this energy so fully and directly as the Divine Mother. I am no one to say the other parts of the Being don’t help I believe they do but it is the Divine Mother that handles that energy most fully and it is that energy that creates and dissolves everything!

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Saddistic "I's" - (4154)

We have all sorts of unusal "I's" within us. If we are alert we can discover them...

I say "I's" because they are a psychological person living within our subconscious. They are like a metaphysical entity belonging to us that takes us over at the right moment to fuilfill their conditioning. They are like a person that has their thinking logic, their corresponding feeling and action. They are a mini us because they have some of our essence inside them. The essence is what makes a person. 

We have seen the thoughts and felt the feelings of these "I's" before but it has never twigged within us that those thoughts, feelings and actions have come from an "I", one particular "I" that when we see it we are now on its tail...

A discovered "I" is a dead "I". In time, as we work on it, it will die!

It can happen that we have some saddistic "I's" living within our subconscious. Typically these "I's" follow anger. They are are not there initially but appear after an angry state has been set up. They can in varying degrees be senselessly violent and destructive in word and action.

I say they are saddistic because they like destroying or ruining something. Self-compassion is a saddistic "I" actually. Because it enjoys suffering and seeing ourselves feeling low and downtrodden. The "I" of fornication is a little saddistic also. Resentment is also. Vandalism is another. 

When we discover such an "I" we can understand for a second, where before we couldm't the many things that other human beings have done in the past, where most of those things were crimes.

Sometimes due to a large amount of inner force that has not really arisen due to anger these "I's" can appear. 

What is at their core? A strange mixture of justice and love. A punishment of love... Reflect a bit on it and you may see something of an interesting revalatory quality there.

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Esoteric Thinking Transcends So Much Common Nonsense - (4153)

We need to think esoterically. I discovered this necessity today. I want to think esoterically so that I can avoid so much psychological struggle...

If only we do, we can save ourselves so much silly suffering that comes from thinking with the mind and the personality. 

When we think with the mind and personality what happens is that differences in one another's past experiences and current circumstances as well as differences in personality plus differences in mental positions get one stuck in internal and external struggles...

To see one another esoterically is key! So important in fact more important than what we realise. 

To see the other esoterically means to see them as an essence. Which means to see them as an essence that has a Divine Monad. 

Yeah yeah heard that 1000 times before, so what you say! Read on...

To see the other as an essence means to see them right now as they are in the work. Exactly in the work! To see them in the work means to see their past, their present and their future. I mean that - to see another esoterically is to see them in these dimensions of time.

To be continued later...

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Completely Degenerated Possible to Regenerate - (4151)

I read somewhere in the writings of Paracelsus that a human being can be very degenerated, almost totally dengenerated yet it is still possible for that person to regenerate. Of course it won't be easy and much effort will be needed, but it is possible and is performed all the time. How degenerated in general are we from what we once were in Lemuria?

This is because the essence can never be lost. It can be totally bottled to 100% but thanks to the help of mother nature or the Divine Mother it can be freed and recupérate it’s original condition. This is because the essence itself is something indestructible.

I think that is really good to know. In fact it is in the teachings of Gnosis where Master Samael says that the demons of today will be the cosmocrators of tomorrow.

However with everything, it has to have its provisos or limitations. What those conditions or limits are, I am not really sure. 

Perhaps if the brain or mind are damaged beyond a certain level of repair then it won't be fully possible. 

There is an anecdote that a Coloumbian couple approached Master Samael and talked to him about their self-realisation, but because they had previously been on drugs (perhaps for a long time - not sure) and because their brain had been ill-affected or left in too a bad condition he told them that they would do their best with new physical bodies. 

But the essence is something like a metal where it can be locked into rock or other compounds and chemicals and substances but given the right conditions and methods it can be extracted as pure and as shiny as before to recuperate its pristine condition.

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Right Thinking Right Feeling Right Conduct - (4152)

We know that this is what we must do to avoid creating karma.

We know that this is what we must do to avoid pain and suffering.

We know that this is what we must do to acquire merits.

We don't really know what right thinking, feeling and acting is though...

We only really know what this is when we are in the wrong...

Sometimes our consciousness can see both sides: the wrong and the right and based off of what is in our consciousness already, we know the way. This is not always the case due to our limited consciousness and limited conscious experience.

But when we our consciousness does not know, we only can know when we are in the wrong.

The trick is all about timing! Timing is everything. We have to be quick to notice the wrong and correct it!

Correct it on time!

The trouble is always when we spend too much time in the wrong!

Just like what happened with the Kundabuffer organ. It was not removed on time and because of that costly mistake we all collectively have the ego.

Our Being even applied that to us. He took us out of life just on time or before the time when it may have been too late.

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