Sounds paradoxical but it is real.
If we remember what we are going to do in the future, near or far we can help ourselves to be more impeccable.
Because we know in the present is where and how we can make or break that future.
Being impeccable or close to it or heading towards it at least will make the future that we yearn for come true.
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We like to keep certain relationships with others strong by not weakening the values hta hold them together.
Though we can very easily forget about doing this with ourselves (Inner Being).
Not allowing the values that draw us close and closer to the higher parts of our self (Inner Being) to weaken or be compromised is called integrity.
As a matter of our integrity, keeping and holding certain values to ourselves no matter what happens outside strengthens the essence to Being relationship, and this integrates the Inner Being amongst itself.
Integrity helps to separate us from the different egos in our interior and gives us separation at the same time from the different events of life.
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To transform darkness into light, above all we need a love for and deep acceptance of the light.
There is no other power within us than a love for the light that will help us get through the embarrassment and disappointment of seeing our obscurity.
If we love and accept the light we have a good chance of being able to see the vested interests of the ego to keep the obscurity strong.
What really helps to build a conscious trust and love for the light, is to really see all the drawbacks of the darkness. Then contrasting them with the immense benefits of the light.
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There is such a strange thing in life where it goes that we can spend years working hard to develop something and in a few minutes or even seconds it can be all gone. This applies to material things and esoteric intangible things.
This is one of the qualities of Samsara.
We can spend our life building and paying for our dream home yet it can be all gone overnight, we can spend years building our customer base and reputation and it too can all go with just one one bad customer experience, we can spend our life developing our path and with a fall it can be lost in seconds, we can be friends for years and just one bad conversation ends it, years in the gym and in a few months it's all gone...
All the pleasures of the egos are also like that they are only very short term and we are left with costly consequences that tak emuch much longer to repair and reinstate.
This applies not only to the "I's" of lust but to all the egos. With anger we take pleasure in getting angry and getting back at the person, yet our image and trust of others in us suffers greatly for months or is even irreparable. With pride we get the feeling of being right but that separates us from others. With gluttony we get the temporary sensations of eating fancy food but we have to work so much to get the weight off and it goes on and on.
This is a part of Samsara, that the creation of the ego through fornication (losing the energy) has brought us. We can only escape that with the awakening of consciousness.
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To produce a revolution is to transmute. So a Christmas revolution would be to transmute the 'normal' way of doing Christmas into something more conscious and beneficial to the soul (ours and others).
A typical Christmas experience goes like this:
■ People have everything what do I get them? I don't know, have to think. We think and ideas start to appear.
■ Some ideas appear then we rush to buy them.
■ While buying gifts we get the feeling that we are not sure if they will be needed or used, but we have to buy something to make sure we have a gift to give.
■ We get impatient because our time is limited and that makes us aggressive while driving, while parking and while in store shopping, and especially in queues at the checkout.
■ An overwhelming amount of washing, cleaning and cooking in preparation for the one or two Christmas gatherings.
■ People go to church for an hour or two and prepare decorations and food for ten times the duration.
■ We gather, and the stress of it makes us uneasy and awkward with our guests and the interactions and getting some things done, have a bit of friction in them.
■ We're finally at the Christmas table, and someone brings up politics or the painful past, and then it's all downhill from there.
■ Disappointment all round. "We only see each other once a year at Christmas and this is how we honour that?".
■ There's an excess of presents and one remembers all those who are suffering in the world in areas of war and conflict and one doesn't feel so good.
■ Have a few drinks to forget about that and bring on the Christmas cheer that ends with a really full stomach and a headache the next morning.
■ Underneath it all quietly in the back of our mind, we think, Jesus couldn't have been born and died for us to do this. Something is missing. Then there is a slight disappointment a slight giving up in religion and in the ability of human beings to deeply reflect: "Oh well, that is just how it is, we say.".
That does not sound too sincerely warm, truly joyful and spiritual does it?
Well we certainly can't be recluses and not have anything to do with Christmas. That is not right either. That would be to go against the spirit of Christmas. Stories such as the Scrooge and the Grinch teach us about that.
So what we have to do is to transmute or transform the experience into something more conscious to give it a superior octave. Which is one that approaches the sincere warmth and joy of the heart, and that is deeply spiritual.
● Do what you have to do without rushing. Do everything but not in a panic or frantically. Don't allow that. Serenity and good-will help us immensely here.
● Be kind to everyone. If we don't rush we can be kind. As soon as we rush we become aggressive. That is the spirit of Christmas kindness to all. Be kind to those walking in front of us, kind to those driving, those in front of us in the queue, kind to those on the road. The elderly person going so slow, maybe that they are out there buying a gift for someone, when they normally wouldn't be on the road, taking a big risk and way out of their comfort zone for someone else. Fulfilling the Christmas spirit in their way.
● Give less in material things but more in sincere care, attention and warmth. Value the company at the Christmas gathering. Commit to spend more time with them during the coming year.
● Eat moderately, forget drinking, forget the past, forget politics and differences and concentrate on the values and things in common.
● Prepare and work peacefully in the lead up to the Christmas gathering, and forgive the little things that go wrong in the kitchen or on the way to the table.
● Take lots of time to pray and be in remembering of the Being. Remember the Intimate Christ and honour the day with the yearning in our heart that one day too - He, our Intimate Christ will be born.
Merry Christmas everyone and may you have a Christmas of the Heart 💗.
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We lie to ourselves and others because of having subconsciousness.
Within everyone's subconscious there is a part that is light and a part that is dark.
We lie when we use our intellect to make the dark part of the subconscious acceptable.
For example, we steal something and when we are caught we are asked why. So as to not get into more trouble we use our mind to quickly think of a reason that is not true but is acceptable, and hides the real reason why we did it, which is not acceptable.
We lie to ourselves when we notice that we act out of the dark part of the subconscious and we start to believe the excuses and reasons that we invent.
The interesting thing is that the "I" is naturally a lier to ourselves. It's existence is based on reasons, justifications and excuses made by the intellect.
These excuses and reasons are always present in our intellect, they come forth naturally. Difficult to stop, but our work here is to not believe them. Then we won't ever lie to ourselves. To lie to ourselves is the worst thing. It is what really expires our hope to change.
Any "I" is a lie and the work on it, is dismantling all these lies. We start by not believing its reasoning and excuses. We can use the same intellect that generated these excuses to dismantle them.
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That is where it's all at: practicing when we don't feel like it.
If we develop ourselves through doing our practices when we don't feel like it, we will gain so much.
We will actually gain consistency, and results come from consistency.
Frankly, we can't wait for when we feel good and feel like practicing to actually practice. Because we often don't feel good and when it is that we feel good, we don't feel like practicing, and so we will only ever practice a few times in a month or even a few times in a year.
We're really going nowhere practicing like that...
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Say we are driving faster than usual in a legitimate hurry, and we need to look far ahead to be aware of any potential hazards, we actually use our imagination to do this and we may not be aware of it.
It is actually our imagination that opens up this other dimension of potential hazard. Our imagination opens this new dimension up, that makes us open to 'see' a potential hazard coming.
If we do not use our imagination we won't see any hazards on the road until they are right in front us.
The same thing with a security guard or a body guard or a sentry. It is really their imagination that allows them to be effective.
It is not to project anything, but to have that dimension of threat or hazard open to us that then allows us to hear, see or perceive the threat or hazard before it is too obviously right in front of ourselves and our physical senses.
Now, clairvoyance is the development of this openness to other dimensions.
When we are in a state of alertness waiting to catch an "I" we are working on, we actually use this same imagination in an internal way, applied ot our inner worlds.
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To begin the day, in a driven and motivated way for our inner work, we need an emotion that is profound and meaningful to us.
Not an idea, or a motivating thought, but an emotion. A profound emotion at that.
Something like: "today I am going to work to free my soul!" or "Today I am going to work to really change for the benefit of all, mostly for myself that is my Inner Being.".
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Just going with what you visualise, however the image of what you are trying to visualise in your mind's eye appears, helps us very much to further develop that ability to visualise.
Whether that image be blurry, half an image, not quite the right colour or shape just continue with it. It will improve in quality, as you continue practicing, trust that.
Giving ourselves that trust, that it will improve, allows us to progress.
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It is powerful!
It is helpful to enter more into our own Being, as the fabric of our own Being is joy.
The natural feeling of the essence is the joy to be alive.
It is the power and the key to concentrate. We can concentrate so much more naturally if we find joy in what we are focussing on.
It is the key to overcome tiredness. Because we all have natural access to the massive reserves of energy put aside for joy and what makes us feel joyful.
It is the key to transform the boring and tedious into a smile and something meaningful.
It has the power to lift people up out of negative internal states.
It has the power to heal others and ourselves from many maladies that are psychological, and others that are psychosomatic, as well as even some physical ones.
The power to see the real, the objective and other perspectives of events and people. Reality is never all negative.
The power to dispel the negative inside and out.
There is joy in our Intimate Christ...
"Life Is Beautiful" with Roberto Benigni showed us something of the transformative power of joy.
Gnostics can be at times unjoyful and so a bit of this conscious power can go a long way.
The key to meditate also. Because meditation is dark and lonely and unpleasant, but if we bring joy to be there with ourselves and to face ourselves, it transforms totally, to be a very pleasant and meaningful practice.
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Tension is tightens our body and emotions. When we are apprehensive or having to face something we believe will be unpleasant we tighten up.
We tighten up to brace ourselves for the pain to come.
When we trust in the moment and in our Being that brings us each moment of our life, we have a reason to trust and relax.
We can trust whatever the moment brings, because our Inner Being is behind it. If it be pleasant, if it be unpleasant, if it be 'not as bad as we thought', if it 'be better than we expected', our Inner Being is behind it.
If we analyse each moment, we can come to the conclusion that every moment that we live in life, could have been worse...
If we think that about a unpleasant moment that is coming to us, we can trust and relax in what the moment will bring...
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Here is some knowledge from a mini revelation of the consciousness.
We all have contracts or debts with others that are present not at a human level but at an internal level. Such as an essence to essence level or a Mondad to Monad level.
Where these contracts or debts come from we may not know. From the past I'd say, when a certain pact or agreement was made between souls or Monads.
Anyhow, we come to life with those contracts, and in time we meet those whom we have these contracts with physically. As we are asleep we don't become fully of aware of the contract we have internally to help that person.
We know something deep down that we must help them, yet we don't. We may totally avoid or ignore them, or help just a bit here and there, nothing special or substantial.
As mentioned before, we are asleep and what happens, is that in time, we develop a strange kind of obsession or a fascination with person that is critical and negative. Where we want to know what they are doing, why they do this and that and we may often criticise and analyse them.
We investigate within ourselves why we have that fascination and we find, yes that we have the same egos and we do our work on that and we get some inner light. Yet that fascination comes back, not as heavy or critical but it is back.
One day a revelation comes, which says that because we are asleep or not fully awake, the Being within us uses those critical egos as a way to bring the person to our mind constantly, daily, so that we get the message that we need to help them.
When we realise this we can then fulfil that internal contract or debt and truly help them and then the fascination or obsession will definitely disappear and turn into perhaps a friendship.
Even a person may keep giving us trouble wanting that we help them because deep down in their consciousness they know that we have a debt with them and they want that we pay it, so to set both of us free.
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There is a part of patience which can be called conscious endurance.
Which means to endure some difficult reactions within ourselves for a greater good. A good greater than the ourselves, especially those vested or egoic interests.
The type of conscious endurance that is needed that falls under patience, is the type where we observe the difficult reaction unfold within ourselves. and endure the difficult feelings and wait that they pass. We do this knowingly so to die and for the greater good.
Here patience, is to endure the difficulty that arises within. The more we consciously endure the more we comprehend and the weaker the difficulty becomes.
In order to die within ourselves we all need this power at some point for some stage. But never for always...
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It seems the sacrifice that moves mountains in our spiritual work is really sacrifices sustained over the long term. As that is what is more difficult.
Many can sacrifice something for a night, but to sustain that, higher energy, will and values such as love are needed.
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| Even rocks have consciousness, because they know how to atomically be a rock. |
One may suspect that individuals can have a kind of karma that has to do with one sex in particular.
For example, can there be a woman that in whatever interaction she has with any male in or not in her life not turn out well, become complicated and difficult, and turn conflictive?
Is something like that possible?
Obviously it would not be all that common.
We can certainly have karma related to a person or a family or a group of individuals, even a country but to a sex?
Anyhow, I think that it can happen, especially if a person develops a deep inward negative attitude to a particular sex.
I even believe we can have karmic debts related to a certain animal species.
It makes sense to me that if a person during their life went on a mission hunting down a certain species for reasons way outside of any real need (if there ever be such a thing), such as for revenge, pleasure, entertainment, that they would incur a karmic debt against that animal. Perhaps even die by, or because of one of the animals of that species.
Now, back to the issue of the karma against a sex. Imagine a person out of egoic reasons developed such a force of dislike and rejection that they ended up becoming against the Divine Feminine or Masculine within themselves, it makes sense right that they could incur some karmic debt related to that principle?
For example, the monks and nuns and even those who knew the secret of the Arcana but kept it in secret and only taught it to one sex alone.
For every karma there is a value to be used as a way to pay. Normally the order is to align correctly with that special value inwardly first, then align outwardly.
Meaning to come into good terms with the principle within us first then go outwards and come good with the physical presence of the same principle.
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This diagram shows how behind each facet of an ego there is a certain value that is lacking. That same value is the precious antidote.
This diagram also says that the lack of a value manifests in a way to compensate externally for the lacking value.
This diagram also says that there is a solution to that lacking of a value. I don't really agree with the resolutions listed, because the real resolution is the filling of the value lacking by giving that value (to oneself and others) and dissolving the "I" that conditions this value in the wrong direction.
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Many times in our Gnostic studies we stop making positive changes in ourselves. The main point of the teachings is for us to change.
Here are some ideas - even though superficial but still good that can help us to get our focus back onto changing ourselves and our nature.
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Here are some ideas or concepts that may be useful to people who are working on themselves to be able to say 'no' to certain circumstances that are not benefiting them.
A 'no' to certain circumstances is a 'yes' at the same time to better circumstances.
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Here are some notes to do with ourselves, our abyss and the work related to it.
We have the abyss or infra-dimensions both outside and inside of us.
We only ever go to the external abyss of nature (of the earth), at night while we sleep (nightmares) and in conscious out of the body experiences. However, we face all day, every day our own abyss.
When we think negatively we descend into our own abyss.
Our own abyss is: our subconscious, our unconscious and our infra-conscious.
Our own abyss is our darkness and negative polarisations. Our darkness is what we are not aware of, and our negative polarisations are our free values polarised negatively. For example, trust polarised into distrust.
These negative values then descend into the inferior regions of ourselves, which are within us just as it is shown in the Kabbalistic version of the Tree of Life diagram, shown as the Kliphoths. There are actual dimension within our interior.
Our own abyss is related to the 49 levels of the mind. In the sense that because of a lack of light and awareness those greater levels of the mind are in darkness.
When we descend into our own abyss we connect to the abyss of the Earth.
There are parts of ourselves that are truly stuck in our own abyss.
We have to rescue those parts. Those parts of ourselves that are trapped, are our values or in other words, fractions of our essence.
Our hope, our faith, our trust, our love etc. may be trapped in our abyss needing rescuing?
What does trapped in our abyss really mean? It means that parts of ourselves, that is parts of our values (part of our hope for example) are polarised into the opposite, to have become negative. For example, our hope has been polarised into 'no hope' and hopelessness.
Only the negative version of a value can descend and be located in our abyss. Never the free value.
The free values cause our consciousness us to ascend and the polarised values cause our consciousness to descend.
A relationship for example may be stuck in our abyss. Many people have their relationships stuck in the abyss, and their way of relating is through the abyss. Sometimes yes and sometimes in varying degrees of depth.
When hope, faith, love and trust are inverted in a person, the relationship itself sinks into the abyss of that person. This in turn in some time brings the whole relationship down into abyss.
The way to rescue ourselves from our own abyss is using trust, love, faith and hope.
When those values are inverted we must focus all of our energy into inverting them to the free state. Find what has inverted them and make great efforts of will and comprehension to bring them back to their normal state.
Two or more abysses don't make a height. They make a deeper abyss than any individual intervening abyss.
The above means never answer or respond to anyone's abyss with our abyss. Always give the free value instead. This pays us back so handsomely.
When something is trapped in our abyss there will always be difficulties, suffering, complications, pain, obstacle after obstacle and misunderstanding and miscommunication after miscommunication.
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If we offend someone who does not take offence and we say sorry and they pardon us even if they didn't feel hurt, there is no karma or no backlash consequences for us. That is no karmic debt to be paid.
This can happen when people we offend don't have the ego in that direction or don't have an ego there to feel offended.
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| Can see there that the little cub loves his/her mum. |
It is different when we offend others who do get hurt. We have to repair something so to end the karmic account of transactions with the person related to that event.
There is also the case when we do something that is all ok, all normal (like speak the truth) and others take offence because their psychology is too egoic or unbalanced. Then there are no karmic consequences for us if they suffer. The minor karmic consequences may be that they get upset with us but because we haven't done anything wrong in the esoteric or greater sense, we will be ok with that until it passes.
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The below diagram has some good tips to relate better to people so to be able to help them in the psychological and spiritual work. These are good skills for a teacher of Gnosis to have.
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In Gnosis we don't believe in evolution, in the sense that human beings have come from a fish and from monkeys. But rather that the essence first enters into creation starting out from within the mineral kingdom, and over time working its way through the plant and animal kingdoms to enter the human kingdom.
The diagram below in many ways is the journey of the essence towards the human kingdom that is still happening today.
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An empty feeling is not really empty.
If there is a feeling there is not emptiness. It feels empty but it is not empty really, it is full of something else - sadness or disappointment perhaps.
The feeling of true emptiness is elation. As the Being in us will be present to occupy that empty space.
The typical 'empty' feeling is an absence of the feeling of purpose or 'feeling good with' something. Usually that feeling of 'I'm good with' has been displaced by the feeling of disappointment.
The conclusion is, if we work on disappointment the 'empty' feeling will go.
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This is the correct formula and complete formula to work on our darkness.
Thanks to the retreat - I learnt this gem.
The best way to approach the work on any defect within us is to see it. Then rise to the light within us, that is the consciousness, the teachings, the Inner Being, the ethics and from that vantage point examine it.
As soon as we know something about that defect be the antidote, which will always be a value or quality of our Inner Being.
Practice or apply this and you will find how different it is. How it is unifying, dissolving, balancing and solving all at once.
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These are notes taken during a class given by m.m.m.
There are two ways of dying further after the third mountain. They are the solar and lunar ways.
The way of the unknown is the solar way. The way of the past and the known is the lunar way.
We must become the ray of our Father in secret. We must become Gnosis.
There are three wills: Will of the Being, Will of the Law, will of the bodhisattwa and every ego has its will.
We must make our will pure and clean.
We must learn to recover our will. The will of the work, of the teachings.
We need the will of the Absolute within us and not our personal will.
A will that is not affected by our human nature, our circumstances, people, our different thoughts...
When in a difficult situation pray to the human soul and say: "My Divine human soul release your will in me, make your will a cause in me!".
We have to be able to renounce our will when needed. But before acquiring that ability we need to know our will, that is, know where it comes from.
The will of the Being in a given event is surprisingly simple.
All that we do when the ego is absent is right, and inline with the Being.
In any event, in a state of alertness look to our will, look to our human soul and ask the human soul to release its will within the causal strata of ourselves.
This work adds a new dimension to our awakening, as it causes the awakening in ourselves. This didactic causes our human soul to be brought into our awakening and the human soul awakens with us. This is really marvellous.
This didactic puts aside the complications of the intellect. Awakening is simple, it is not complicated.
Awakening is to take for real the reality that our consciousness sees, To awaken is to see the reality of the events that surround our life and make up our life.
Awakening is not shown as it is the most natural part of the human. It is about being, it is to consciously be the human soul.
An awakened person recognises another awakened person and also knows who is asleep.
There are angels of justice, that we can work with regarding certain issues of justice and injustice.
One way to overcome skepticism is to accept reality. Because to not accept a certain reality is skepticism.
Make your will to coincide with reality. Make your will to be parallel to the will of your Being. Make your will align with the teachings. Make your will align the five centres. Release the will of your human soul. Release will from its trappings.
Accept inner Accept and recognise the presence of your Being in you. Accept and recognise that you are the soul of your Being.
We must know that our will is Divine. When we know this we can apply our will in four ways.
Do not separate our individual will from the will of our Being.
We must distinguish from our human will and the will of our deep within.
To be awakened we don't allow anything of the ego to land in our psychological airport. When we accept the esoteric and the ontological we are starting to awaken here.
To be awakened do these three actions: 1.) Do not get identified 2.) Contrast and 3.) Choose.
Memory is a huge trap for our will.
The more will we release the more force our essence has.
We need to work permanently with our human soul. Bring our human soul into our five centres. You could say that we have five wills, the will of each centre.
The instinctive will manipulates our will and the will of others. Fear uses so wisely the will of the instinctive centre.
Do the opposite of the will of the ego. This releases will.
Rescue, liberate, awaken and perfect are the works that we need to do with our will. Similar to the work we must do on the word.
When we begin to free our will we also want to free the will of others and see that their will is also free.
Awakening the will is educating the will to be used in the work and with and for the Being and not against anyone else, and does not create karma.
The Karma multiplies itself, via the domino effect. To stop the domino effect we must stop the consequences after the first time.
Word, will and action all go together. They are intimately related to the Intimate Christ.
Will is the factor that puts us into jail and is also the factor that can take us out of jail.
We need to harmonise the will of the intellect and the heart. Our centre of gravity is made up by where our will mostly goes. To establish a centre of gravity in one centre, it must steal will from the other centres. We can not put more force into another centre until we stop that main centre from stealing will from the other centres.
Our job as the soul is to control will and consciousness.
We need the consciousness to use the will and the work and action to implement and compliment. We also use the motor centre to execute or action it all out.
If only we can go the Divine Law showing that we control our will. They will respect us immensely.
Excuses are basically distorted versions of the truth.
There are many instinctive excuses, like I am tired, need time alone, overwhelmed etc.
If we transmute our weaknesses into will we become champions.
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There are places in this world that still sing out the power that once shook that place.
Those places sing out to invite the soul in human beings to come, and fill themselves with that power. To learn and know of that virtue by experiencing the song in their hearts.
Those places sing their song to inspire human souls to bring that power into their lives. When that power enters their lives it will meet others in their lives and expand.
Sometimes the spirits of nature come to honour the power of those places and join in with the song and sometimes the souls of the deceased visit to sing along, to be warmed and strengthened and for the more conscious deceased, to teach human souls who visit.
This way, from one human being to another, the power that once shook that place will move through the world and do its work. In many cases, that work is to right an injustice, tht roused that power into action, and to reap the fruit of the spirit in which that power shook that place - often LOVE.
Places of courage and love - where a final stand was made, a few against many more. Where certain death was faced, where lives were given for others, where miracles happened, where the Divine forces from above intervened to help...
There are valleys, mountains, lakes, rocky outcrops, reefsa, seas, islands and old battlefields that sing...
Not to mention the the temples of the past and present...
Why I have always wondered is there a certain a sombre silence, a certain tranquility to be felt at the old battlefields? Many lives,were lost, much loss was felt, much suffering, also much courage, much love and much relief...
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Here are some good points to take into account when we have to next say sorry.
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There is a definite skill and learning to do with dealing with so called 'toxic' people. Here are some ideas and concepts that can gives us some ideas and starting points to go on from and to complement our psychological work to do with this.
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Here are some of the latest photos of the planets in our solar system. This is a good reference to engrave into our imagination for when we do certain practices of invocation with the planetary genies/regents.
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To know how to regulate our nervous system is a tremendously important knowledge and knowing how to do it for ourselves is a just as important a skill.
When we can do it for ourselves we can help others to do it.
Here is some info about the nervous system and some information about how to regulate it.
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We all need to be leaders in the work. To lead others through teaching, more importantly to lead ourselves and our own work.
Below are the values we need to lead.
Leadership can be learnt and developed. Yes, some people are born leaders, yet they all have these or at least some of these values.
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