Gnostic Esoteric Study & Work Aids

Just to let you know, over the next three weeks starting from today, the posts will be very sporadic and if there are any they will most likely be hasty in quality. I'll be hopping over the Pacific in a flying kangaroo to take part in some retreats. When the flying kangaroo hops us back over the Pacific and then over the nullarbor plain I'll get back into regular posting, hopefully with some interesting bights to share with you from the retreats.  End (3012).

A relationship is really a spiritual practice. Any Gnostic worth his or her salt can see that.  The ideal is to relate essence to essence, transcending with the work, the personality and ego combinations in a  relationship.  When the relationship is essence to essence then we have the magic and marvellous case of two Monads relating. A retreat is also a spiritual practice. Obviously as you can see from the previous post a retreat experience contains many egoical states that can be, through the work, cleaned and worked to be fresh and clear. End (3011).

The experience of a retreat begins a few days before the actual start date, with a bit of a pinch. One begins to think: "I'll be travelling and I'll be at the retreat so my daily routine will be disrupted and I won't be able to do this and that...". Then naturally one begins to feel the effort involved in travelling and with a bit of freshly injected will and a refreshed positive attitude one feels happy to be going and the numerous benefits put a smile on one's face, just like the day we signed up to go. The trip to the retreat venue is something novel and adventure like which is exciting. The travel to the destination has its exciting parts, its uncomfortable parts as well as its relaxing parts. It is not all excitement or discomfort but a series of states experienced in appropriately ordered stages. The time comes that one then arrives at the retreat venue and a new flavour or atmosphere takes over. A little bit of uneasiness creeps in mixed with look...

The Real Picture There are several inner temples and it can all get a bit confusing. There is the heart temple - a real inner temple residing in our heart centre. Where the atom Nous of the Being resides. There is the temple in which the Being of a person receives when the person completes the first initiation. In this temple the Inner Being officiates. This temple, as I understand it is located outside of eh person in the internal worlds such as the astral world. Then there is the generic inner temple, which is more of symbol than anything else, depicting the status of a Beings work of self-realisation. Inner Temple as Symbol of a Being's Work As we work, we either construct our inner temple or we restore our inner temple (fallen bodhisattva). When a person falls and remains fallen over several lifetimes, due to neglect, the person's inner temple goes to ruin. The work that we do and the Inner Being does on the esoteric path constructs or resto...

Energy Accumulates that is What It Does  When we use energy it gets stored in our system. A person who makes an effort to use their consciousness, will by virtue of these efforts will end up accumulating energy in their consciousness. If a person sits all day and night that physical activity causes energy to get stored in their physicality which makes to sit more and more. That they get heavier and heavier putting on weight. If a person exercises physically they accumulate energy in their muscles and other systems of the body that allow them to exercise in time for longer and for more intensity. Important Point So then we all have energy, and the important point is that it accumulates in us depending on the activities we undertake. So then here is the key how the masters have so much energy in their consciousness and how they have all these powers. Because they accumulate vast quantities of energy in their psychological and esoteric systems and constitu...

The value hidden in the entrails of any given "I" is the magic potion that remedies the ills of that very same "I". So know the value and you have your magic potion. With fear, I don't think I will ever get tired of saying that it is TRUST. During the Melbourne retreat a missionary gave a talk and he recounted an experience that a truly wonderful master from Venezuela who has now sadly already disincarnated, told. The experience went that in the astral this master faced a vicious dog, which was it turns out one of his own "I's" of lust. He fought the dog, however it only grew in size and fury. He then suddenly remembered the values inside of lust, such as: transmutation, love, wholeness, connection the Being etc. and he then began to chant HAM-SAH transmuting his sexual energy while remembering his inner Being. The dog then began to diminish in size and fury until it disappeared. So then, I think that the best thing that we...

Necessary We can benefit so much from having a well developed imagination. It helps us with our mystical practices and psychological practices. You don't know how much until you really develop your imagination more. Mystical Work You know the reason why so many of our mystical practices fizzle is because we lack concentration and imagination. Imagination like concentration is an ability that we accumulate. Our physical vision is really pale compared to the richness and clarity that we can develop our imagination to. In other words our imagination can be realer to us than what we see with our own eyes. This is a rather large mug just in case you were wondering. Photo taken at the Country Place, Dandenongs, Vic. (Easter Retreat venue display cabinets). Psychological Work With imagination we can construct the scene of any egoic manifestation and delve deep into the egoic state that we had, and extract some of the information about the ego under study ...

The work is really hard in the beginning. It is overwhelming and one so easily gets lost in all that has to yet to be done. The path orders all of this work for the person. However, with time and work as one begins to work down in size one's "I's", and the essence grows a little, one sees that the work gets easier. This is because there is more free essence to understand the other "I's" and each "I" is connected to other "I's" and by working on "I" we also work on all the other "I's". That is why working on the P.P.P is so critical. End (3002).

Do you know the vision of God that you have? Your own vision of God is actually something important you know.  You really must know it, and know it in depth... Real Value It actually has a real value. To repeat, the vision of God that you carry inside of you has a real value. Why you may ask. It is because this value creates a perspective (certain outlook) within you. This perspective then has a large influence in the way you take and respond to the events of life. Your own vision of God sits as a backdrop in your psyche, forming a support upon which many psychological processes unfold. Your vision of God influences your thoughts, your emotions and your actions. Many Visions of God There are really many visions of God. Actually there are as many different visions of God as there are people. There are vast and infinite visions, there are narrower and more human visions, there are low visions and there visions of nothing. There are vision...

Ain in Hebrew means - nothing. That to me makes a lot of sense. Why? Because before there is anything or before there is creation of any kind there is nothing. Nothing has to be the true and legitimate origin of creation. The true source of everything is nothing - the no-thing. The non-entity. The 'nothing' is really that which will not ever change and will always be. End (3005).

When a person truly trusts, a kind of clairvoyance accompanies the person. This makes sense because with a true state of trust one knows and can see in a wide an open way that will unfold will be ok. Fear the very opposite of trust, is a state that lacks this open and wide vision. There is vision but it is very narrow and distorted to the point of being false. This vision is not clairvoyance it is rather fantasy. There straight away we have a key to work on fantasy. The vision of fantasy is so very very narrow. If we blow up that narrow vision of fear, the same fear retreats a surprising amount. End (3004).

History Within the tradition of Kabbalah it is said that the first form of the "Tree of Life"was the Menorah or the candelabra of seven candles. It is said that it was Moses who first brought the tree of life to the people in the form of the Menorah. It is said that Moses chose the format of the Menorah because the people were largely illiterate.    If we superimpose the menorah over a tree of life diagram you'll be able to see how the main features of the menorah match up with the various Sephiroth of the tree of life.  The base of the menorah represents Malcuth and the very middle candle holder represents Kether. The three candle holders to the right represent the Sephiroth on the right hand side of the Tree of Life, namely: Chockmah, Chesed and Netzah. The candle holders on the left represent the Sephiroth of the left hand side of the Tree of Life, namely: Binah, Geburah and Hod. The Sephiroth on the middle line of the Tree of Life are represented by th...

There are many details of the egos in which a person can die in. One such small detail which quite often turns into big trouble for us: is reading into things. There comes a time when it is part of the death of an ego to really die in that detail of “reading into things”. That's right knowing that they are there and dying to them. To read into things means that we allow the mind to bring up the past and draw similarities and make assumptions and suppositions about how a person is feeling or why. To die in that detail means to stop the mind quickly and definitely and ask the Divine Mother for her help to dissolve that “I” straight away. End (3000).

The sense of importance leads to anger, mostly when some kind of an obstacle is present. Before anger appears, the sense of importance comes from pride. If you are doing something important, watch out for anger, because if an obstacle appears, anger could also appear. Constantly question that sense of 'importance'. Sometimes we get it really wrong. What seems important is not and what we don't take as important is really important. It is a wise measure to renounce the sense of importance while we are doing things. Like getting to the airport for example. Just concentrate on getting there not worrying about how important it is. We can always say to ourselves if we miss the flight ok, there is a solution, we'll catch the next flight - it is not that important that we lose some control and get all flustered and scold others when there is a solution. Renouncing that sense of importance really reduces stress. End (2995).

Just a short note to let you know new posts will be on pause from now until after Monday the 22nd of April. Who knows, I may be able to upload a few short posts using the phone. See how I go. End (2999).

This is something useful. Through practices and discipline create a sanctuary for yourself, where you can isolate yourself from impressions, where you can quieten the worries, the bothersome thoughts, quell the inferior emotions... Your fortified sanctuary upon entering and spending time there allows or facilitates you going deep inside yourself. It is a place or a time where you can revitalise and draw much needed wisdom and solace. Cross the bridge into your sanctuary and leave behind all cares, worries, thoughts of life and enter into  peace within yourself to touch your light to search, to find,  to know, to comprehend, to renew, to strengthen, to love...  When you have this sanctuary created you can tell yourself when experiencing a difficult moment, "it doesn't matter, I'll be in my sanctuary soon and all will be fine, I will relax, become quiet, feel well, draw wisdom and breathe solace, and I will solve everything". This sanctuary could just b...

Whenever we receive an impression, we often automatically take it relative to our psychological debts and psychological lacks. It is really true that we feel very hurt when we have already have a psychological debt with a person and the same person makes some uncalled for remarks. We always tend to take those comments in relation to the particular nature of the debt. I mean by this, that if they have verbally criticised us before and we felt hurt, we will take whatever they emit as a cristicism and feel hurt as per the psychological debt. If we did not have a psychological debt registered in our system then we would not feel so hurt, we would be more like stunned or shocked, but not really hurt. We feel hurt, rebellious, defiant, angry because of the debt. Another very coarse example is that we see a nice house we feel 'low' because we take that impression relative to our psychological lack of needing or wanting a house etc. due to feeling insecure, not having enou...

Any Debt How do people incur any kind of debt? There are two ways that people incur debts. One way is when we give somebody something and the other person does not pay it back. The other way is when a person takes something from us without returning it or compensating for its loss. That is also exactly how we create psychological debts - via the above two ways. Psychological Debt To create a psychological debt in ourselves, something psychological has to be taken from us and not returned, or we give something psychological to someone and it is not returned psychologically. For example, when our dignity is taken from us we create a psychological debt within us that works to later take the same amount of dignity back from the other person. When a piece of respect for our public image is taken from us we create a debt. When we have worked hard and have given our time, good will, effort, attention and it is not acknowledged we can create a psychological debt. When ...

Introduction The sense of invalid efforts or of an invalid day accompanied by a tinge of anxiousness or restlessness is our essence telling us that we must do something that counts. In our current state what counts more than the elimination of the ego? Nothing right. Master Samael says that any spiritual attempt that does not take into account the dissolution of the ego is doomed to fail. So our spiritual attempts of the day to be worthy must take into account the dissolution of the ego. Working on the elimination of any ego soothes that anxious and hollow like feeling of 'not doing anything substantial'. Divine Mother - Prayer, KRIM and Imagination Praying to the Divine Mother, the mantra KRIM and imagination is a powerful combination when it comes to the dissolution of the ego. Seeing the ego we want dissolved and seeing it in our imagination becoming weaker and seeing the equanimity that ensues is a good use of our imagination. As we work on...

Big Picture Goes Click For some people seeing the big picture makes things really 'click'. While others seem to be ok without seeing the cosmic and universal reasons for things. If you are a cosmic, universal, 'big picture' person then Gnosis does offer such an angle to see spirituality from. It can also give us the cosmic sense of things and cosmic reasons for the why of the self-realisation and the various other aspects of esotericism. In fact certain aspects can only be understood fully when we see them from the cosmic point of view. One such topic is the Divine Mother.  So Many Ways of Mysticism There are so many ways of mysticism, for some reason some ways don't quite fit with us and so no problem we must find the way that does. There is a way for us. For each person there is a way.  The great thing about Gnosis is that it is not focused on just one way, it presents many ways for the student to chose. There are many ways through which we...

There are several egos that use our imagination so spontaneously and with such ease. When we want to consciously use our imagination we find it tedious. It feels tedious because it requires more will to concentrate and it also requires organisation - a logical coherence in the sequence of images that we imagine.  The ego uses the imagination to project a memory, then it puts an emotion on top of that image. The image is just a flash but the emotion lasts longer. It is like the ego acts on the image or uses the image to extend its emotion. Egos that like to use the imagination this way are anger, lust, envy, resentment to name some of the big ones. The ego just flashes up images without coherence and its will is to superimpose existing emotions onto it, which is really the opposite of conscious imagination. We need to really control our imagination. If we can do that we can understand more how the ego works, and what it really wants. We think that the eg...

To wake up in the morning and promptly get out of bed is much better for a person in all the senses than to just stay in bed looking at the ceiling and thinking. You just don't feel any better as the minute hand moves, your mind does become any clearer, your problems are no closer to being resolved or solved, the tasks of the day await, the help that our Divine Mother can give us slips away as we our consciousness gets duller and duller the more we think. When we do get up promptly and do something, we feel so much better and then we realise that the feeling of being comforted, being protected, solving and sorting out stuff etc. when we are lying in bed looking at the ceiling is really a false feeling - a good old trick of our egos.  It feels a little uncomfortable to get up but what we can do about that, it is nature, everything good has price or requires some effort. The discomfort quickly passes though. Especially the more one is accustomed to do it! Peopl...

For a while it just has to be done now. Whatever our yearnings are, we have to work on them right now.  Whatever it may be now is the time. We have to be inventive that's all to adapt ourselves to use the events of our day to serve as a means for us to work towards our yearnings. Waiting for the right time of day just doesn't work out. Because that time of the day is in the mind, not in your actual real day, and because it is in the mind, it it never feels right and never comes... That's why I say confetti with the mind's plans to work and use the now to work. End (2990).

There are those defining moments now and then. When we have been sitting on the fence past the due time, a defining moment appears. It can come in the form of a tough question, a remark, a comment, an argument, a request, an order, a commitment, an opportunity, a dispute... The objective of such a moment is to make us decide. That is define ourselves for one side or the other. If we are already relatively defined it would be to define ourselves further to take deeper steps forward or to stay put and slowly with time slide back little by little. Anyhow, these moments always appear, the more we work, the more intimate and less physically noticeable in nature these moments become. However, when we work less, these moments can be a little rough, a little "in your face" type of thing. Ultimately though, these moments are something orchestrated by our interior with the design that we take a step further towards the same interior force that orchestrated the mome...

If we ask for help from any other source for our internal difficulties, we tend to think that we can sit back and relax and just wait. Sometimes yes, that is true but that is not really the norm. The norm is that we ask for help and then we go to work, and the help that we ask for will come through the efforts and practices that we do. Usually when we ask for help with regards to external things that we can not control or influence the approach: "wait and see" apply. But for internal things the formula:  "ora et labora" applies. End (2988).

Sarcastic comments can cause some disturbances in our psychology, in the way of activating pride and anger and producing a nasty reaction or an inner explosion. Being alert an hour ago while receiving some sarcastic comments directed my way, I discovered what causes the reaction in us. We react because we take the comments relative to our perception of the person's psychology. That is, in simple terms we see that they have something against us and we react to that. That is, answer relative to our perception of the person. We think they dislike us so we dislike them - the usual mechanical "hit back". Being aware, we can choose from which background we will generate our response to the comments from.  The best background our essence tells us is to see the comments in ourselves, relative to what we think about the general comment, forgetting about the person. Then we don't react. We can also go to the grounds of philosophy which is something neutral and ...

Sometimes we just feel that we can't do the work, that we are not cut out for it or that we are just not strong, intelligent or profound etc. enough to really do it. We are just a peaceful, good, wispy fairy. You know, that the above statement is what the ego of self-defeatism sets up in our mind and emotions. Sorry but my experience shows me that. Whether we are a wispy fairy or not in reality, is a totally different matter! The ego and reality are two different things. We have a choice to make, which do we believe. How many times already have we felt we can not do something but in the end we did? The ego of defeatism is in its own world and based on comparison or certain impressions its gets the feeling going in us that we are not enough etc. etc.  We shouldn't forget the Being in all of this. Is the Being within us not enough to realise itself? What do you honesty reckon the answer to this question is? If you say that the Being is not enough then ask...

There are some psychological blocks (huge egos) that we just can't overcome by ourselves. We think we can but in actual fact we don;t really. And frankly speaking these things make certain areas of our life grind to a stand still. In fact we can stay still in those areas for our whole life and even for several or more lives. Because we are working on ourselves some how the situation is different. The Being or essence or I don't know who or what does something to shift those egos so that we can take a few steps forward. All that we know is that without that help we would not have been able to have taken those few steps. This shows any person that the Being or essence of something high and deep within us wants something though and out of our life. End (5363).

The best thing to do is to get over annoyance as quick as we can because it only builds if we don't do something about it. Then it becomes too big for us to handle and we have to vent it, and we explode irrationally, which can be catastrophic.  We (identified essence) in the heat of the moment don't like to overcome our annoyances, but it is the best thing that we can do for ourselves is to drop it and go with the flow of events. End (2985).

Sexual Centre So we have a sexual centre with its various functions. Magnetism being one of them. Master Samael says that it is also a centre of gravitation. Where it causes many events (social), activities, ideas, feelings etc. to gravitate around it, on many different levels.  So those properties are always there, but it depends on our level of being and the egos present in our human machine as to how these properties get used. If there is a high level of the Being the activities are decent and refined, if the level of the being is low the activities can be indecent etc.  Lust Lust and its "I's" are really egos of sexuality. If we did not have a sexual centre or we did not have sexual energy we would not feel any inkling towards anyone. The sexual centre, sexual energy and our state of consciousness regarding sex make up our sexuality. This is what really determines everything. The egos use our sexual centre and our sexual energy and the egos of lust ...

A person spills their coffee, drops their keys, coughs up their drink, walks funny, doesn't hear properly, doesn't understand, the list goes on... When we get annoyed we have in our subconscious background that they are wrong. This subconscious feeling of wrong is mixed with other perceptions like they are stupidly wrong, wilfully wrong, or ignorantly wrong, wrong with ill-will etc. in short - wrong in all sorts of combinations. The thing is that they are not wrong though! They may be technically wrong - true, they clumsily dropped the same spoon three times, but they are not really wrong in themselves for doing that are they? They honestly are not wrong for doing that! They just couldn't hold the spoon, or if they did it on purpose they did it for psychological reasons that they were sincere about and they were doing something right for them even if it was wrong. Understanding this that they are not wrong, really helps like nothing else. So much so that it...

Before repentance is comprehension. Repentance is an octave of comprehension - a deeper state of comprehension. Repentance is the deep understanding of the error of an ego and of the ego as a whole. The latter kind of repentance is much deeper and encompassing. In repentance, one's comprehension permits one to understand deeply the role and function the ego plays.  One also knows why this ego plays this role, and how it is come over the years to play this role and fulfil its function. With repentance one begins to see the ego as having little value, and what is of a more vital and greater value is the essence and the Inner Divinity. For example, with the ego of self-love one always values receiving love. But with repentance one has come to understand that this is an huge unbalance (an error) and that the real love for oneself is the one that by giving receives and by giving enhances the essence within one as well as the essence in the other. One values ...

If we send our love to nature, and we give our good will, our attention and care, this does not go to waist. That part of nature will reciprocate in a real way, tangibly, or invisibly through experiences. Here is an example of how such a wonderful return in the way of nourishment, as fresh as can be landed in my lap without any effort.  Thanks Adrian - what a beauty! These creatures are really so impregnated as we would expected with the freshness and energy of the ocean. Eating them the day they are caught fills the person up with the ocean prana that seems to above all to go to the brain, energising it.    It seems that the western rock lobsters as they are called here, take some of the ocean's vitality and transforms it, somehow instilling into itself a tiny tiny bit of the ocean's essence. Because when you eat it you really feel the ocean, your imagination fires with ocean images, you get a glimpse of the ocean's essence, that is through your senses...

That is all there is in life - a flow. Life is a flow, and soon as the flow stops we shift to another flow on another level. There is a flow right through every level of creation. We even have a flow in our own mind - the flow of thoughts which moves by association and is discursive. We are very comfortable with that flow, we can spend hours flowing around our own mind in that flow. View from my sitting rock at Trigg. The there is the flow of our essence which is the flow of life streaming out from our Inner Being. That flow is the one we often resist to jump into and we go against with the many egos that we have. When we are defined as essence and to be essence we can trust the flow of our life (events and happenings etc.), because it will be more and more streamed from our Inner Being. Sometimes intensely for a short while, then left to our essence and then directed and then left for a long while. End (2980).

There are many answers and explanations, this is just another which may coincide with what you have heard, been taught or discovered for own. We have this or that "I" because we have along the ay forgotten about the essence and its abilities and qualities, and above it's individuality. Basically all due to a lack of self-remembering. We have lust because we have forgotten about our own sexuality. We have forgotten that we have a sexuality, and it is because of this sexuality that we are attracted, it is not because of the other person. we forget that we have to relate to our sexuality then to other person. We just forget that, and go blundering in, all clumsy and stupid trying to relate with the other person, and of course making the stupidest errors in the process.  With anger, we forget that we have intelligence and patience in our essence through we can solve the issue. we forget that our consciousness is the best problem solver there is. we have fear ...

Sometimes we want to how a certain series of future events will play out. This pertains to the realm of imagination. That is, the realm of seeing. We can be very apprehensive because we can't imagine how things will unfold and we will deal with what unfolds.  Before we enter into a series of events we can be slowly shown through our imagination how things more or less will be, but more importantly how we will be able to think, feel and conduct ourselves to better manage or solve the difficulties that could arise during those events. Perhaps this comes from our own essence or our inner Divinity, I am not sure but it is a interesting thing that is very helpful and as it does unfold it really takes away a lot of apprehension and worries. So then as a conclusion then, we can ask our Divine Mother to put things into our imagination about how those future series of events or possible events will unfold and how I can deal with them. Don't expect the spectacular, i...