Our Sexuality is Sadly Outside of Ourselves (238)

Introduction

Our sexuality is totally outside of ourselves. We need to take it back for ourselves.

This is actually quite grave and is the cause of much of our problems. I say this because when our sexuality is constantly going outside of ourselves we recognise that sex is very powerful and we become driven by it, that it is we are powerfully driven to experience its sensation and take its impulses to their conclusion. We can do crazy things in order to fulfil these sexual impulses.

When our sexuality is inside of us we recognise in sex an amazing power that is ours that we can use to become powerful in life but more importantly use to die within ourselves and to awaken.

Starts and Ends with Us

Our sexuality starts and ends with us. This is hard to understand when our sexuality is outside of ourselves. We feel that we need another human being so much - but do we? Maybe our mind and emotion believes we do but I don’t know how much sexually. Well definitely our sexual energy does not because it either stays inside of us when we transmute or it goes out when we lose it and outside it is not for anyone.

Anyhow this statement means that our sexuality is already complete, meaning with or without a woman if we are a man, or with or without a man if we are woman we are still complete and sex is our power just like our blood is ours. We don’t need anyone for us to feel that as a body we are not complete. It is just something of our mind because we know that our sexual system fulfils one of its functions with another human being so our mind thinks we need someone.

If we look at a couple we will see sex is only for a very small percentage of time during the day if we take the day in the life of a couple as an example. So what about the huge other percentage of the time of the day? We are by ourselves right!

Conclusion

Basically your sexual energy is yours and you do not need someone else to feel complete or satisfied. But for a creation within yourself or outside yourself you need it though, but that is different to feeling a need to be complete or fulfilled or a certain dependence.

End (238).

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