An Internal Problem – Wanting Two Opposite Things at Once

An Internal Problem – Wanting Two Opposite Things at Once - (299)

Introduction

There are many problems that we can face in life and in the work on ourselves, though the common one is an internal type of problem where in essence we really want two things at the same time.

Same Nature - No Problem but Different Nature - Problem

Normally that is no problem when both things are of the same type like two pairs of shoes or two ice creams or two books etc. but when the two things are inconsolable opposites we have a problem. For example, we may want one thing that belongs to the ego but yet we do not want to leave or abandon the path.

Our Problem

We know though that if we go and get what the ego wants we will be in trouble with the path and we know if we go deeper into the path we will have forget about what the ego wants, so until we decide one side we have a problem and dear me – a lot internal struggles.

Or when we want something from life and something from the path as well, and we know that we can’t have both of them, a problem arises inside of ourselves. We can only have one, sometimes we can have both when the thing from life does not interfere with our work but when it will harm or greatly interfere with our work and a very strong and big ego within wants we usually fall into a problem state.

Solving the Problem

This problem is solved when in the end we settle for one thing. That is how the problem is solved, but to get to that solution is difficult. It can be arrived by help from others and by working on the ego that wants that thing from life or that particular thing that it wants. This can take a long time, that does not matter as long as the solution is found. Though the longer it takes the longer we are delayed, but don’t worry about that, just work!

Conclusion

Wanting two opposite things, the path and the ego causes problems within us and this inner contradiction and internal fighting harms us and makes us resistant and negative towards people especially those people who are working on themselves and are apparently doing well in their work.

Anyhow we have to go ahead and work on the ego that wants its object and then solve the problem that way. In the end you may be able to get what the ego wants but within the work and when it is gotten from within the work it is no longer ego anymore.

A problem gives us an amazing chance for more definition and triumph over a part of ourselves, so in disguise they are a help. You feel great when you solve it! Trust me!

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