Test of Justice - (3178)

Introduction

There is a test called the "Test of Justice" on the esoteric path. Once again, it is a test that everyone who treads the path has to face.

Because of the latter and being aspirants to the esoteric path - it is a good idea to know about it. Especially to know it enough so as to recognise it and know the qualities needed to pass it.

The idea of this post is to open up the theme a little and explain a bit about it, essentially covering the points of: what, when, how and why.

What

If we examine the process of human justice we see the process being made up of a few steps. First there is accusation, then there is a trial, then there is judgement then there is the sentence.

The test of justice is about passing through these or similar circumstances. That is, the circumstances of being accused, judged and sentenced to some degree.

Often it is the Gnostic people that are the ones who provide the circumstances for this test.

There are some very interesting principles at play in a test. One is that the those of an inferior level of work or being are the ones who are put into place to test those of a relatively superior level. So those who are very dogmatic and fanatical often are perfect to play out the circumstances of such a test.

Another very interesting point to be aware of is that tests are setups (not entirely real), so the accusations that are to fly are false or are half or only a third true. This becomes apparent at the very onset of the test. In fact, this is how one identifies that one is under such a test.

It is also worth noting here that we all, along the way create the circumstances for our future tests. So to pass through the test of justice, usually, the things that we have done wrong or done not so well,  are used against us.

So it makes sense to some degree that maintain an very upright conduct makes this test light, lighter or even redundant. Because by virtue of one's excellent conduct, it is clear that one knows how to relate well to justice and there is less karmic weight to be shifted, If you read you will understand what I mean by the shifting of karmic weight.

When

This unique test is faced somewhere before the start of the first mountain.

The timing is critical, because of the nature of the test, it must be before the earnest start of the path (major mysteries). You will understand more why this is, in the 'Why' section.

A person can fail this test, interestingly failing it is not as dire as failing the Direne test. So one can still have a second chance. Personally I would like to pass it once and not have to go through it again, because of its difficult nature.

A person though can fail this test and not recuperate. There are some who have failed it and they end up being enemies of Gnosis. Always trying to undermine and thwart the progress of the Gnostic Teachings.

Master Samael himself said, that he passed this test, however not so dashingly but rather just 'on the line'.

How  

Usually there are a set of circumstances in our Gnostic world where something is not going too well. There is a problem or conflict of some kind and the focus of the conflict is on us and we are accused, anlaysed, talked about, reprimanded, letters are written about us and we receive many letters and w may even end up suspended or sanctioned or expelled.

Why

Whenever justice is carried out, there is an end and a new start. A certain new line of destiny is forged and put into place. For example, when a criminal is convicted and sent to jail, his time as a free man is over and his life in jail begins, and his payment also begins. His line of life changes abruptly.

So the test of justice serves the purpose of setting up a new line of destiny for us, a line of destiny that will have us tread the path.

So the test of justice is used to shift our karmic weight so that we can truly embrace the path. It is a test to allow us to enter the path.

The test of justice can be one that cancels much karma. This of course depends on the individual's karmic load. If one has a lot of karmic impediment this test can be unusually severe.

If one on the other hand has little karma this test is lighter and less painful.

Passing the Test

Justice is the worst enemy of pride. So the more we work on pride the better. During the circumstances of the test if we remain balanced and close to the facts we can pass it.

When we protest and attack and distrust the Law we start to lean closer and closer to tipping over and failing the test.

We can defend by stating the facts but to counter attack we are getting close to failing. Justice always prevails and it is best to trust in it and let it run its course. Knowing that we are cancelling a lot of karma so to enter the path helps tremendously while under the strains of this test.

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Things we Don't Need Go to Waste - (3177)

Things

There are things at times that we need. Because the circumstances of our life require that we have these things. Like a mobile phone or laptop for work for example.

There are also things that we don't need but something in us would like to see ourselves have those things. This is clearly related to ego.

To not feel the need and want to have it anyway is a little upside down or absurd. That is ego for you.

When what we really need is serving a real need, then that thing will prove to be useful. When what we need is not serving a real need, that thing ends up being something redundant. That is, something that does not get used and can even later on turn sour and be a problem for us.

Experiences

There are some experiences that we think that we may need, but really we do not need them. But the egos inside of ourselves want to have them.

If certain experiences that we think that we need  are going to be inconvenient we can apply this bit of knowledge: "that what we don't need ends up being a waste" to help ourselves overcome the desire.

For example, we can tell ourselves: my body does not need it, my physical work does not need it, my esoteric and psychological work do not need it and no one I know needs it. If I don't need it then it will be a wasteful or useless experience that won't take me anywhere so why do I want it? What is going on there?

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Relating to Pain and Pleasure - (3176)

The Work - Pain and Pleasure

The work is always about being over the top of things within ourselves.

Pain and pleasure are two factors that every human being must reckon with.

We usually fall under both of them. The key of the work is not about not feeling pain or pleasure but not being under either of them.

Pain

We are usually under our pain and because we are under our pain we suffer. When we remember the painful past the emotions and sensations of pain rise in us. The injustice brings a bitter taste to our system.

When we are under pain we are a victim, that with time becomes helpless, to the point that we lose the capacity to help ourselves out of the hole we have dug for ourselves.

Pleasure

People fall when they give themselves to pleasure and put themselves under the rule of pleasure. When a person does that they become ruled by 'the more' and that creates restless seeking.

Pain and pleasure are two things that with the benefit of experience and understanding, we should not allow ourselves to fall under.

This is the correct relationship between ourselves and these two factors.

Twins

These two factors exist co-dependently. We can not have one without the other.

If there is pain there is automatically pleasure. They are exactly like life and death. They are twins.

When such twins exist - their dynamic is such that one leads to the other and vice versa. In the case of pleasure, an excess of any pleasure leads to pain, and an excess of pain leads to pleasure.

How is that last thing possible you may ask? Well after feeling so much pain we start to love our pain and our suffering and then we fulfil what master Samael says - the mystique of pain, and for that reason it is so difficult to eliminate egos that have come to love our pain. That is feel pleasure for their pain.

Many such egos have this component in them. They have come to love their pain. Self-compassion is one.

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Mark the Death Board - (3175)

A little board, card or notebook is good to keep ourselves to account.

It is sometimes so easy to pass through our day without dying...

At the end of our life what really counts is how much of our essence we have freed. Our essence is what we will take with us into our future moving forward beyond this life and into the next.

We can often forget that...

If I havn't made a mark on my death board I havn't died in something today.

Actively working the key of dying in the small facets of a big ego so to fabricate the defintion needed to overcome the sructure of that whole big ego is made easier when we use a card, notebook or little white board to track the progress of this work.

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Ego too Huge - Take It Down One Bight at a Time - (3174)

We may find ourselves having difficulty trying to define ourselves for the death of an ego. This may really worry us. Don't despair - all is not lost, there is a remedy.

The remedy is to work on facets or small parts of that ego which we find ourselves ready and capable to dissolve.

For example, if we take anger, we may be very happy to dissolve the part of anger that swears. But yet we feel incapable of dissolving the whole big block of anger. Somehow we need it or rely on it or whatever it is - we just feel we are not capable to dissolve it yet.

If we work on these small parts of anger we will end up weakening the defect of anger and the "I's" of anger that characterise it. One day soon due to the work that we have been doing we will be ready to dissolve the defect or the big "I's" of anger. 

The big "I's" all feed off the smaller ones. If we have been taking down that ego piece by piece we will find ourselves pretty much ready to take the great leap and seriously work to take down the big block. By the way when we do decide to do that it will be easier as we have taken a lot of supply lines from it already.

The ego is like a tree that feeds through its roots, many of which are small. So taking away these roots makes the tree really weak and unable to feed.

There is a common saying that goes: "How do you eat an Elephant?" with the answer being one bight at a time.

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Very Good Moment When the Ego is Hungry - (3172)

When the ego is really hungry it is a great moment for discovery and death.

It seems especially when it is hungry does it releases to us if we are observant enough, what it really wants and why.

A good trick is to deliberately make it hungry and then observe!

I don't mean here the egos of gluttony but any ego. Because all egos consume impressions - things that they wish to hear, to see, to feel in emotion etc.

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No Time to Scratch Your Head? - (3173)

Are you finding that you have very little time to tend to things, like walk around your house and tidy a few thing up?

Well, we say to ourselves - I'll just have to do something about it. But then you realise that there is nothing that you can really do.

Well, trust is the answer.

Trust that when you need more time it will avail itself. When the Law and the inner Being decree that we need more time to take it a bit easier then it appear or we will be able to make it appear.

For the meantime enjoy the movement - be like air - swiftly moving from place to the next - free not needing to tend to ourselves and affairs (e.g. tax return) until it is time.

End (3173).

Test Direne - (3171)

Introduction

This is a test of the path. A unique test. A test unlike others, where if it is failed it is significantly maiming for the person's path.

Gnostic students often hear about it in passing and it is usually only given a mention. Even though it is a topic that is not often spoken about, it continues to be a test on the path that all those who tread the path must pass through it at some stage.

This post aims at answering: what, when, how and why of this test.

By the way I hope to one day find out the origin of the name Direne. Some research is in order. I will keep you posted when I find out more.

What

This test is for those who are married and are practicing the Alchemy. It is not a test that a single person would face. A single person may be involved in the scenarios of such a test but the Direne test is not for single person it is for the married person.  

In certain respects it is a test of definition for the Alchemy - which is the sexuality of the Being. So at the end of the day it is a test of definition for the Being or for the path which leads tot he Being.

Every test involves a certain virtue. In this test the virtue of love is involved. Also the virtue of transmutation.

Of course, if one loves their spouse this test is easily passed. If one loves their inner Being this test is easily passed. If one loves the path this test is passed.

Of course if one really transmutes in all the respects, all such wayward desires that would have one falter in the circumstances of this test can be transformed.

When

Usually at some point in the first mountain. The exact point varies according to the individual. The second mountain does not have initiations nor is it about definition. The first mountain is more about tests, initiations and definition. The second mountain is entirely composed of labours of death.

As this test has something to do with definition it is fitting that it should appear in the first mountain somewhere.

There are some general principles that apply to all tests. One, is that a test appears when the person is ready or able to some degree to pass it. Another one is, that every test wishes to make obvious what is true. Another one also is that a test is only a set-up.

When the candidate in truth has enough definition, and has spent enough time working on him or herself and has the ability to pass it, then logically the test will appear. So a beginner, married for three years is not likely to come up against the Direne test.

A couple married for thirty years may come up against this test. Both have been loyal for more than thirty years, so it is not really loyalty that is being tested but rather definition for the path and the Being.

If one fails the Direne test the love that was supposedly there just vanishes all like an illusion.

How

It usually involves a certain scenario or series of scenarios where a third person enters somehow into the circle of affection of the person under the test.

Usually this test involves the emotional centre and tends towards the sexual centre.

The scenario of this test is usually not immediately about sex. So a femme fatale type of lady (if a man is under test) does not all of a sudden appear tempting the man. It is usually someone in Gnosis or a friend that appeals to the person under test emotionally.

Usually slowly for emotional or sentimental reasons the third person becomes close to the person under test. It is usually not sexually motivated reasons that the third person initially comes close, it is rather for emotional reasons which could have some kind of sentimentality behind them. That of feeling to protect the person, to help the person, to help where their parents could not etc.

This test is made very much worse when the couple have some deficiencies or lacks. That is the man is not entirely happy with his wife. She is rude, often annoyed, speaks with a harsh tone, says no to almost everything, is not very friendly to people, seems to be against her husband most of the time,

When there are emotional type of lacks then the third person can easily and quickly become closer and there is space already present of him or her to fill.

Why

As i mentioned earlier there are some general principles that apply to all tests. One, is that a test appears when the person is ready or able to some degree to pass it. another one is, that every test wishes to make obvious what is true.

When the candidate in truth has enough definition, has spent enough enough time working in transmutation on him or herself and has the potential ability to pass such a test, then the test can appear to make ti known to all that indeed the work that has been carried out so far is true and is of a quality high enough for the person to to proceed in their path.

End (3171).

Aware All Day Practical Tactics - (3170)

The goal is to be aware all day. This is really hard to do!

We have to try and try. 

To divide our day into compartments and try to be awakened in those compartments can help.

For example, as soon as we get into the car - alert, aware, watching our mind time.

Walking to the toilet at work - alert, aware, consciousness engaged time.

Checking email - focus and observing that we are focusing time.

You can make up your own compartments and do your best to be awakened in those compartments. 

Then practice until your are getting good at it. Doing this will then cause you to expand into other compartments.

If you do this you will be quite surprised how it gradually starts to make a difference. 

You will see a continuation from day to day. A link or a bridge will begin to be made between the days - thus forming a continuation of consciousness.

You know we actually wake up in areas - such as in the use of the word, sexuality, relationships, the body, dignity, money, love etc. etc. So why not in the compartments of life.

End (3170).

Work Hugs the Whole Tree - (3169)

When we depend upon our mind to work on ourselves we are going to find it difficult. We will get somewhere but later we'll get stagnated.

Working on ourselves is about bringing in the many parts of ourselves. Due to this characteristic of the work on ourselves, the various parts of our essence develop.

If our mind is no longer helping us to arrive at comprehension, then try our will. If the action of the will, for example, stopping ourselves from acting, does not take us closer to comprehension, then try love, if love falls short, try wisdom or knowledge, if wisdom or knowledge do not help, try consciousness justice - that is work with the Divine Mother.

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Trumpet-In the Qualities Cavalry - (3163)

When we find working on a defect difficult we can try calling upon the many other qualities of the essence that we have. Even if they are well developed or not - calling upon them can and certainly will help.

You never know, because in the process you may find one quality that is the one that you need to tip the scales in your favour, and make winning easier.

For example, a person is working on their anger, then invoking the qualities of respect, honour, dignity, serenity, intelligence, foresight, patience, love etc. all help us in the battle.

To be relying on one quality may not be so effective, especially when it is not really the key antidotal quality.

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Ego Becomes Instinctive - (3167)

The worst is when any ego becomes instinctive.

When an ego enters the instinctive centre we are in trouble. Because we lose control. Our mind and will lack the ability to control the instinctive centre.

The instinctive centre works normally without the mind. So when an ego has becomes instinctive and functions through the instinctive centre we can not easily get access to it so to control it.

We can, but it takes time and we need the help of our Divine Mother.

It is then a good precaution to not allow any ego to become instinctive. Fear, lust, gluttony, angry, pride when they get into the instinctive centre they are really difficult to uproot and work on.

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Anger Burst and the Instinctive Centre - (3168)

Instinctive Centre

Anger has a lot to do with the instinctive centre.

When a person is tired and hungry anger easily appears, and this has much to do with the instinctive centre.

Being tired and lacking food are ultimately all to do with the a lack of energy. Anger and a lack of energy go hand in hand.

We may come home late at night after a long and busy day's work and have spent the night giving a class and fielding questions, then when one is just about to retire - you hear your name being called to help fix a problem with the phone or the computer. You think why just now, why not ten minutes earlier, I'm pretty tired and have been working hard - give me a break etc. etc.

We are tired yet we get angry and are filled with energy...

We march down there and forcefully solve the situation... 

Certainly not all that good. Much could have been done better. 

Contradiction - Tired and Hungry - No Force Yet with Anger Full of Force

Such a contradiction - tired and no energy but within a few seconds we are angry and full of apparent strength. What is going on there?

One is that the instinctive centre works by supplying a large amount of energy in a  burst. It does not slow release energy. Because we are not trained in how to deal with a burst of energy we channel it against the other person or situation.

Second our mind perceived that we were lacking energy and that it thought that we should not be bothered - that we should be looked upon with some consideration. The outburst of anger shows us the body really has stores of energy that we do not perceive.

Third, when there is less energy, anger must appear in an untrained person, because anger comes to inject force into our system to solve the difficulty. 

As a general rule, when there is less energy there is anger. When a person loses the sexual energy such a person will inevitably fall into becoming very angry. Because of the lack of energy.

Third, the lesson to learn is to know how to fill ourselves up with energy. The virtues require energy to function. Patience for example is one of these virtues. When we inject energy into ourselves we feel less self-considering and therefore less angry. But most importantly to note, with energy in our system we can act with the virtues.  

Anger protects the interests of other egos. So if we know how to drop the interests of the other egos anger will disappear and if we know that it is false we are not really tired we have lots of energy in reserve. When we are truly really tired we certainly have no force to get angry.

The very deep instinctive relationship to anger is dissolved really int he second mountain in the labours of Hercules.

End (3168).

Awakening is a State of Remembering - (3166)

The ego can not wake up. If there is an ego in us that thinks it has woken up - then oh dear...

If there is an ego in someone that thinks they have woken up then run... 

The essence in us is the one that wakes up. Our awareness is the one that wakes up!

To wake up is to enter into remembrance of what we have ignored for so long. To wake up is to remember what we are, who we are...

Who and what we are has always been with us. So then to wake up is to not re-invent the wheel but to remember and know once again our inner nature.

When we realise that we are not our thoughts for example, we have woken up a little. We have always never been our thoughts, and this until that moment of awakening, we had forgotten. To awaken is also to realise what he had totally forgotten or what we did not know.

End (3166).

Emptiness in Zen is Consciousness - (3165)

The emptiness that is so often referred to in zen and buddhist circles is no more than what we know in Gnosis as consciousness or awareness.

Emptiness - because there is no "I" present, the mind is clear or empty. If there is no "I" - no person - no ego - there is just empty psychological space - however it is not really empty it is full of awareness.

Empty and full always go together. If something is empty it is also at the same time full of something else. An empty glass has no water but is full of air. A full glass is full of water but has no air in it. 

End (3165).

The Moment the Divine Mother Enters Your Imagination - (3162)

A gnostic student may not be able to imagine his or her own Divine Mother. Perhaps if such a student tries, they become confused - Egyptian, Christian, African, Greek, Roman, Aztec, Vedic - which imagery do I align with? None seem right.

Even such a student may try to imagine his or her Divine Mother and he or she just can't. If feels like lifting a car - just so so heavy.

With persistence one day while just imagining to be at the feet of our Divine Mother She will come into our imagination and then we see Her clearly and definitely - confusion gone. She has her style, her presence, her look, her majesty and dignity - She is what we can now trust in.

This a new octave in our relationship with Her. A very definite octave where you feel it is you and Her. Now you know that it is you and Her that are going to do the work of dissolving the "I's". Not much else is needed, your best efforts to comprehend and counteract and Her efforts to dissolve.

End (3162).

Early Time More Consciousness Time - (3164)

To be late is stressful and is a less 'a consciousness moment'.

To be late means that we have been ignoring something and only realised until late in succession.

To be early is to be on top of things - that is more conscious and more responsible.

A later person lacks some responsibility.

When we wake up early that state of being early to greet the day and the vibrations of the early morning lead one into good and wholesome things. One can focus, meditate, develop imagination, pray etc. with clarity.

Late at night is different - in normal life all the trouble goes on at night. The night clubs, pubs, other types of activities all go on late at night. 

It seems that the night leads to confront our negative traits and the morning leads us to find our more conscious parts.

So then, one time is naturally better for mystical death and the other time is naturally better for works of the consciousness.

End (3164).

Life Teaches Us What to do with the Four Elements We Have Within Us - (3158)

Introduction

Before being physical the elements are spiritual then psychological. The elements are living principles.

We all relate in some way to the elements. Sometimes we don't know how to relate well with them. Not the elements that exist outside of ourselves but the elements that are in our body and psychology.

This post gives some pointers in this regard, i.e. how to better relate to them, by looking at how we relate to them in normal human life.

Fire

We see in life that fire is mainly controlled.

We see that fire is always dialed down or up. It is dialed up or down by controlling what it consumes. It is given less air or more air and it is given more coal or less coal.

Fire is used this way in cars, boats, planes, power stations, boilers, kitchens, refineries etc. 

Within us, life would teach us that we can benefit greatly by moderating our enthusiasms. This covers the expressions of our emotional and sexual energies.

Fire used without moderation is very destructive, just as is our emotional and sexual energy if used without moderation.

Air

We see in life that air is mainly circulated.

We see this in air conditioning systems, fans, planes, helicopters, blowers of all sorts,

Within us our aerial elements if directed can be of great benefit to us. If they are not directed, i.e. our thoughts we become very flighty and end being neither here or there.

Water

We see in life that water is mainly made to flow.

We see this in damns, aqueducts, sewerage, urban and country water supplies, etc.

Within us we see that as a whole our life flows from one moment tot eh next. It is never still. Also we have our raw sexual energy in our inner waters, and we, as life would teach us, to get good benefit from water, is to make that sexual energy flow to a place that where it will nourish us and supply life to us. This is transmutation.

Earth

We see in life that earth is mainly worked.

We see this in market gardens, building sites, parks, home gardens, etc.

Within us our earth has to be worked and trained. Which means to make something fruitful, our body - our earth must be disciplined or trained. A spiritual discipline pays handsomely to anyone who has one.

Common

In life a common approach to the elements is to always contain them in some way. Which means for us that to contain the elements means to be aware of them and utilize them for our benefit. Just as in life the elements are contained to be later used for beneficial purposes.

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Think of the Happiness of Not Having the Ego - (3161)

Many egos project happiness and we bight that hook, line and sinker.

This makes it hard to let go of the ego. But we can help ourselves to let go by focusing on the real happiness of not having the ego.

When dissolving the ego we can imagine ourselves happy and peaceful rather than fighting against the seeing images of the ego being happy getting what it wants.

End (3161).

Third Person Thinking - (3160)

If a person's name is John, then third person thinking for John would go something like this inside of John's mind: "John is a good guy, he is really helpful, he fought hard to achieve that goal" etc. etc.

Obviously when John thinks in that way his imagination is being fired imagining scenarios that are often fictitious and so John is then asleep.

If John was to think as he is direct from his awareness onto the subject he is not sleeping.

Thinking in third person, is fantasy really and puts our consciousness to asleep, because we identify with the 'John' in the scenarios and our identity is not here right now in who we are living in this moment.

End (3160).

Overcome Lust is to Separate from Projections - (3159)

A large part of the ego of lust is its projections.

It is really the projections that we see and latch onto more so than the person.

If we can separate from those projections then we have taken a good step forward in overcoming lust.

Just asking ourselves - are those projections true and honestly answering this question for each projection will give us the space to be able to separate from them. 

This is because we will see with our consciousness that these projections are not really true. afterall, how can we really know for certain that the projected experience will be the way it is being projected? It could be terrible (indeed it will be, if balance and order is broken).

In conclusion, separation from projections, not believing in them, not believing in the projected happiness.

End (3159).

Egos Eat Buffet Style - (3157)

Each ego has its own menu and it own way of eating. Though Most seem to prefer buffet style. 

That is they like to take in as many impressions as they can and that is the way that they function.  They eat and eat until they are totally full to the point of satiation. 

The egos always like to be well fed. They like eating freely and abundantly. That is their preferred style once they get to eat.

The egos of gluttony reflect this style of eating of the ego. the ego is a glutton in its field.

Pride likes to receive lots of praise, lust likes lots of impressions, laziness and selfishness like to be surrounded in lots of nothing to do but 'me time' moments. Self-importance and self-compassion love to wallow in impressions of love and commiseration. Well, gluttony loves to eat big - the more delicious impressions of food the better and the happier it feels.

I think that you get the picture. This is a good detail to take note of. The ego when left to its freely expressed nature is a big eater of impressions. The weaker it is the less it eats.

End (3157).

Register with the Law - (3156)

I find that it is really helpful to 'register' consciously and voluntarily with the Divine Law.

We are already registered, because we all have our karmic accounts, but to register voluntarily is different is an octave higher in our trust and co-operation with the Law.

To visualize and then concentrate on the Divine law is really good for us. To enter the temple and ask for help, to register with the Law saying that you want to dissolve this or that big ego and that you honestly need help and you are honestly going to do your best to dissolve it is really a blessing for the soul to do that.

This is a formal declaration that you wish to die in that ego and the help will come! This declaration once made, is made, and will last as an official and solemn record.

End (3156).

Loving the Sexual Energy and Transmuting Takes You Closer to the Being - (3155)

People don't love their sexual energy...

The egos of lust and fornication don't really love a person's sexual energy...

Just because it brings people pleasure, does not mean they truly love it.

To love consciously the sexual energy is something quite different to loving the sexual energy because it brings pleasure.

People may wish to use their sexual energy, but for various reasons they find that they can not, and so they can become bitter towards their sexual energy. They turn bitter thinking that it is the fault of the sexual energy for giving them impulses or desires which they can not realise. It is not really the fault of the sexual energy (it is more the fault of a lack of knowledge).

This is not love, conscious love remains as love even if what we supposedly love, pleases us or doesn't please us. Conscious love is not dependent upon receiving, it remains and is present whether or not something that we desire is received or not.

People do not love their sexual energy because they have not been taught transmutation, and about their Inner Being.

Deep down people are confused by the sexual energy. When it accumulates they find that they have to do something about it, and often what they do, their essence deep down does not agree with, and in doing what they do, they loosen their connection to the radiating warmth and light of their essence. 

After a while they start to despise their sexual energy as they become snared by the passions that are a part of the vices that they created to deal with the sexual energy.

Applying Gnosis can teach a person that loving their sexual energy and transmuting it, will bring him/her closer to the Inner Divinity.

Whenever we need another person to love us in whatever direction (emotionally, sexually, intellectually, spiritually etc.) it is a sign that we are not radiating our love to our various parts and functions - which are also the inner parts of our Being. Why? Because that is really our own job - to take care of our parts and functions. it is not someone else's job is it?

What do people really want out of sexuality or sex? It seems that it is sensations but that is not really it. They want something more, something psychological - even something deeper than that i.e. psychological feelings or senses of power, gratification, satisfaction, being loved etc. But still that is not really it. They want something more profound. Yet they do not really know that that is what they are looking for. They think it is feelings or sensations which they want. All the while, their essence wants something else, and they are not aware of this.

People mostly don't even know that what they really want out of sex is something psychological then more profound - something spiritual. The spiritual feeling is what they really want. 

People unaware to themselves, look to sex to find an eternal love, a spiritual closeness, an eternal completeness, wholeness, a kind of healing, a happiness, etc. but in reality they only find it for fleeting moments - vanishing like smoke. But they are right, that in sex is to be found all of those things, but through the right means, the right means of not expelling the essence of sex - the sexual energy. They can find that which they deeply wish for - however it is their own Being that delivers these things through sex, not sex alone that delivers, but the Inner Being through sex. That is where they make the mistake. Alchemy is the development of the Inner Being through sex.

The sexual energy is sourced from our Third Logos - it flows from Him. Our sexual energy is like a messenger of our Inner Being sent to us in the form of energy.

To help ourselves we can cultivate love for our sexual energy. Everything right, in balance and in order will come out of that love.

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See It Own It - Karmic Responsibility - (3154)

"See it – Own it". That is an interesting expression used these days. If one sees something out of order or wrong, then one happens to automatically own it - that is it becomes our karmic responsibility. What happens next is somehow our karmic responsibility.

We don’t like to assume responsibility do we? We get the karma anyway whether we like it or not.

To know what is right and not do it is one definition of what it is to be a coward.

Cowards also get karma…The one who takes courage and tries but gets it wrong I think gets less karma then the one who never tries because they are scared to get karma.

Imagine seeing someone drowning on a beach and you just freeze. Or imagine then, if you try to help the drowning person but fail. Which is worse? Freezing is worse right.

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Self-Image Composition - (3153)

We all have an image of ourselves. We are mostly not aware of it, yet it most of the way we think and what we do and say.

So then the first step in relation to our self-image is to know it. Knowing it makes us conscious of it.

When we are conscious of it we can see it everywhere. The fantasies that we, have show up our self-image as well as show up what we truly lack.

What we truly lack makes our our reality, and knowing our reality is what is helps us and is whjat really counts.

When imagination and reality coincide we can be awake and there is consciousness. When imagination veers away from reality we fall asleep.

If we begin to construct our real self-image by looking at ourselves in the mirror of our facts, we can have something real and powerful to immediately contrast and counteract our false self-image from which many fantasies still come from.

If we have not built up our real self-image yet we do not really know oursleves too well yet and we are not very strong before our real self-image. That is, we easily fall into fantasy and arguments and blaming others.

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Danger Shown In Advance - (3152)

Usually before the candidate starts the path he or she are shown their most dangerous defects. By dangerous, I mean the defects that would take one off the path.

The wisest thing to do is to work on these defects seeking their definite dissolution. Because our future path depends on it. To even seek the help of the Divine Law is very wise also, as these defects are karmic and causal in nature.

If not, we will certainly face much difficulty and even failure.

Sometimes by grace of our inner Divinity we are not allowed to progress until these defects are taken care of. That they have been dissolved so that any possible danger has been greatly minimised.

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Practice Virtue to See What to Die In - (3151)

If we are ever stuck in what to die in. We just need to get our list of virtues and then embrace one or two of them. It won;t be long before we see how difficult it really is to be that virtue. 

What makes it so difficult in us to be that virtue are the things that we must then die in.

A psychological inventory helps us to do this.

You'll see that doing good in you attracts the evil in you, and then it will be a matter of transforming that evil.

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Love NOT Given But Generated - (3150)

We participated in a retreat on the weekend and a wonderful missionary gave a talk on Love. 

During the talk he shared an astral experience that he had with his Divine Mother. In the experience his Divine Mother concluded saying: "that love is the only value that can not be given. It has to be created."

He commented that we can be surrounded by the love of others or the love of the Masters and we can feel well to some degree but to be filled with love we have to have love coming from inside of ourselves.

To truly feel love we must have love and it must flow from deep inside and meet the love that comes from outside. 

There is really even on Earth in these dark times much love around us. Even though there is so much love around us, if we don't have love for something, that is we don't feel love we can feel lonely, sad and without love.

We have to generate love because it is intimate and personal and it is really of the nature of our Inner Being.

Love has much to do with the particularities of our Inner Being, our free will, our heart and really it has to come from inside first.

There are mysteries to love, which our mind does not understand, we many times in life ask ourselves: "how can he/she love that person and not the other person who is really kind, generous, virtuous, noble etc.?". It does not make sense yet they continue loving that person who looks so unfavourable to our eyes.

If love is given all the way it can contravene free will. Love comes from the fibres of the soul... and that means transformations and changes in life.  

There is a teaching from m.m.m that says for love to be real it has to be returned. 

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Consciousness and Imagination - (4983)

Will and imagination can shape and locate our consciousness.

With imagination we engage our consciousness.

Our consciousness is where our attention is. If we control our imagination we control our attention and therefore we activate our consciousness.

Whenever we imagine, we engage consciousness. The consciousness participates in the two poles of imagination. When we visualise we do so consciously, using our conscious understanding of what we are visualising. When we receive in our imagination we use the newness of the consciousness. Where something previously unknown appears as a revelation through our consciousness.

When we fantasize - our consciousness sleeps.

Consciousness breathes life into what we imagine.

Our psychology is based on our state of consciousness. Our consciousness is totally flexible, elastic and transferable. Through our imagination we give it a reference point, then our psychology take on that reference point or base and function relative to that reference point.

Our self-image is something of imagination. The correct self-image correctly directs our consciousness in life.

Because we can transfer the consciousness we have bases. The higher parts within our consciousnesses have to decide where to transfer our consciousness to.

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Hermaphrodite Word - (3149)

In our remote and ancient past in Lemuria human beings were hermaphrodite, that is the physical body of human beings accommodated both sexual organs - male and female.

With both sexes integrated into the one body, these ancient human beings had many powerful creative powers. This is pretty obvious. Because one had the ability to manage directly the creative energy manifesting through both poles, and so the power of creation was in the hands of each human being.  

Much later the division of sexes occurred. However there is a part of our body that is still hermaphrodite. It is our moth. Our lips are female and our tongue is male. When these two parts work together they create the word.

The word as we know has tremendous power to create. With our word we can construct wonderful things or wreak havoc and devastation.

Our word in energy is totally sexual - that is totally creative in power. I don't mean it is all about the physical sexual act but in origin it is of the two poles through which the creative energy flows.

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Bases in Others is NOT Spiritual - (3147)

If we have our base in another person or in a group of people basically we are not very spiritual.

The spiritual person has their base in God or in their spirit or even in their essence.

To have our base in another person is to forget the spirit that we have within us.

To try to love another person through having a base in them means that after a while we are not going to love them. 

First is to love God then through that love - love others.

To have a base in others means that one day that base will crumble as it must, because nothing in life is permanent and then we will crumble just as our base did.

If we ever say that "we can not live without.." or "we can arrive at something without..." or "we can not do something without.."  then we have forgotten our Inner Being.

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Facts Over Emotion - (3146)

Emotions and sentiments of all kinds pass, even vanish, leaving only facts or what is real. The work on our self when done sincerely and correctly is real and causes facts... 

It is always better in any issue or when making any considerations or evaluations or do so by the work, or by the facts, because if done based on emotion or sentiment such emotional based considerations or reasons will one day fail you.

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Three Temples - (3145)

As Gnostic students there are three temples that we should really know or if not know, have constructed them as accurately as possible in our imagination, so that when needed we can powerfully conjure up that image and transfer our attention there and connect to Beings who are there and can help us.

These three temples are: Our Heart Temple, Hospital Temple of Alden and the Palace of the Law.

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