Following on from the previous post, the realization that there is a conditioned part of our essence that wants pain is a very very important realization.
We think how ridiculous, that there is a part of ourselves conditioned to want pain. We think that we don't want pain, that we are just angry, hurt or upset from what others have done to us.
Though with a bit of analysis we will see that really there is something within us that is interested in pain.
To break that illusion that there is not an "I" in us that wants pain, we need to do some analysis. With analysis or via a conscious discovery we can break that illusion.
This discovery that there is an "I" within us that wants pain, helps us to make steps to let go of pain especially when this "I" of pain is there, because we understand now that its aim of feeling pain is senseless, that there is no other objective to it than to feel pain. Just like pressing on a wound that is healing to feel pain with no other objective.
When the "I" that likes pain is present there is no plan to get better or to heal or help others. Deep down it wants to destroy things with pain, hoping that it will reach the love of the Inner Being or cause the love of the Inner Being to come out.
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| Our history - Our Inner Being. Forgetting that we fall into lots of pain and difficulty. |
Unfortunately that doesn't really happen. Because we have forgotten the Being, and we forget that we are with the Being and the Being is us, and it is us that has to love our Being and our essence to stop the pain and bring out the love that transforms it all.
It' just does not happen that hitting ourselves and hitting ourselves causes some love to automatically appear within ourselves and transform everything, That is not in accordance with the laws of things. This behaviour does not align with the Law of reciprocity, we can't get love from pain, but we can get love from love! Yes we can! How can we be responsible people causing pain to get love? Many teenage children do that with their parents, take drugs and do crimes to get love but they end up breaking away from their family and get put into a detention centre and the misery and pain gets worse.
We attack, hurt or harm others to bring ourselves more pain because deep down that really hurts us. We know that by doing that we 'shoot ourselves in the foot'. In fact we only inflict pain because we are feeling pain.
There is a part of our essence that is conditioned to mechanically inflict pain. Where does it come from? From the past - from so many experiences of life having gone wrong with painful feelings as a result. From having forgotten our Being and attributed all this suffering to It.
We know with the word or with physical hits etc. we inflict harm, and we may not even want what we say to happen or want others to suffer physical damage, we just want them to 'feel' pain. That is the proof that this "I" is present in us, it just wants to feel pain and make others to feel pain too.
If we dissolve as taught in Gnosis, our pain, we will not inflict pain on others. The reason why we keep inflicting pain on others is because we still carry a lot of it inside ourselves.
Often the pain that we carry inside comes out in relationships and there we have to act quickly because if not soon we start to dislike ourselves and the dislike for others starts and expands. There is then only two ways out, mechanically dissolve the relationship and others that follow, or dissolve what "I's" cause the pain.
End (5027).
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