Painful Terminating Streak in the Ego

Painful Terminating Streak in the Ego - (5040)

There is a streak in some egos that are about: "fed-up", "can't handle more", "no-more", "don't want anymore of this"...

There is this tendency to want to terminate things...leave our job and find a new one, pull out of a group, quit some activity, cut off a friendship, leave a relationship etc. etc.

All of those feelings come from having our 'nose being rubbed in' what we have done to others in the past. That is, the things we did to them that was against their will.

What happens when we really understand the hurt we have caused others: we say to ourselves: "I'll never do that again". Which is the opposite of those feelings in the first sentence of this post.

The curious thing when we hear the "I" in us saying the above words, there is this feeling of past pain and pain projected into the future...

We know that this feeling can only be the "I" as the consciousness does not identify with the past and does not project into the future.

When that "I" displaces the terminating thinking goes and we are left a little confused...

The hypnotic grip is powerful we believe that what we "can no longer stand" is something ethically, cosmically, lawfully not supported. Yet it is an ego and in the silence of the mind it is our reality that we are living.

The only real and sane thing before us to lawfully, ethically and cosmically make a new reality which has its base in the dissolution of the "I" and in paying our karma.

The only way to dissolve those "I's" is with a definite decision to eliminate them.

End (5040).

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