Painful “I” of Self-Sentimentalism

Painful “I” of Self-Sentimentalism – (2687)

This “I” is worth working on. All because it brings one much pain.

Even when pleased, this “I” feels a kind of teary, happy pain, which is something very different to the plenitude and happiness of our own essence, that is not tainted by pain.

This “I” is embroiled in the manifestations of the “I’s” of pride, self-love, self-importance, self-compassion etc. When rejected, when abandoned, when neglected, when abused, when treated harshly the pain that we feel mainly comes from this ego of self-sentimentalism.

We may be very hard on ourselves but considerate of others. As we can control our own psychological pain but we can not control the pain of others.

It is to see ourselves as precious, poor, little, handicapped, disadvantaged, incapable, needing help, a dear person, a good and kind person, etc. etc.

When we see ourselves this way we can not understand how others can reject us, treat us harshly, hurt us, etc.

Obviously, others do not see us this way do they. Nor do we see others this way either.

Sentimentally is very prevalent in certain cultures as well as being part of our personality. The Latino culture is very sentimental as is the Spanish culture.

We expect others to look upon us sentimentally. That is to consider our soft and dear feelings, and our lovely and sweet heart.

We superimpose these feelings of sentimentality towards ourselves onto others that we care for. Then we cry.

To conclude, we can begin by dissolving this “I” of self-sentimentalism by changing the way we see ourselves. We when we look closely at ourselves, we have very little of dearness, softness, being poor, being little, being incapable, needing help etc. etc.

The Venerable Masters do not look upon us sentimentally they see our facts. As do the Venerable Masters of the Law. If they saw us sentimentally human beings would get away with the worst crimes being unpunished, thus unbalancing the cosmos.

End (2687).

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