Story of a Karmic Ego

Story of a Karmic Ego - (1039)

Beginning

One finds the work and the way to the path again in ones' current life. One begins to work and naturally encounter obstacles and with work overcome them. One day until that day one has been relatively successful in overcoming one strong ego. Though one day was different, it marked the onset of a period of intense, unrelenting bothering.

For Years

For some years one battles it, fights it, fails, triumphs, learns, comprehends, takes risks and when one sees that after all this work, it is still there, one begins to get desperate for answer.

One Fateful Day

One day one receives the teaching of the way the karmic egos work. One sees or understands that the karma associated with the karmic egos, impels one to be drawn and even desire what the ego wants. This is the effect of the karmic programming! To desire the very thing that will stagnate you and bring you down.

Karmic Programming

The karmic programming keeps the ego alive until we begin to pay the karma by developing and exercising the value that we lost or went against. The work of exercising and getting that value pays the Karma.

The Teaching – a Change

This teaching makes so much sense and explains a lot, though confirmation is needed to make this new insight complete and then actually make it knowledge and our own particular truth.

A Clear Answer

So one begins to ask once again and unexpectedly a very clear answer comes by means of an internal experience, that is so clear, vivid and unmistakeably about this situation. One learns that in the past one had a degree of esoteric work done and one not valuing it threw it because of this very ego. So now that one wants to work esoterically one is impeded by the law using the same value or ego that contribute to ones' previous fall.

If it was Lust

If it was lust one has to develop chastity and transmutation and repent, negotiate and seek to obtain pardon. this is also your and everyone’s else’s story but with different details.

End (1039).

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