Self-Importance makes us Sick in the Head

Self-Importance makes us Sick in the Head - (949)

Sorry

Sorry about being so rude, I am only writing from experience. I am not targeting anybody (in the whole post) I’m just posting something I have experienced with this ego.

When it Grows

Self-importance when it grows just like every other ego it becomes quite harmful to us and others, and one place that it harms more than any other place is our mental health. Lust for example affects more than anything else our mental and sexual health, and anger - the health of our heart, fear - the health of our stomach and nerves, and so on and so on.

When this ego becomes very big we start to suffer like crazy and think that whatever is said positive or negative is about us or for us, when of course it isn’t.

We think that when a lecturer is talking he or she is talking about us or for us. We, for example see a bus with a message on it or a number on it and we think that it is a special symbol or message for us and we think that people should be taking care of us, thinking of us and doing things for us all the time.

Does not See the Unbalance

With this stupid ego, it is stupid because it does not see that it is unbalanced and the unbalance is the source of its pain, it just wants to receive and receive and this makes it fatter and uglier and increases its sufferings, because it goes against the fundamental law of nature.

Desire to be Important to People

There is that desire in self-importance of wanting to be important to people and that is often an illusion. But we suffer like crazy when we are not taken into account by others. That has to be inverted to what is realer or truer and it is that the Being (which is higher part of ourselves) must be the most important thing to us and not us being the most important to others because we can not be and never will be. We must have the Being ever present in us just as we want others to have us always present.

The secret why we expect this of others is because we do it for or with others and that is the way that we think that we love them and it may be so though others love in different ways and we are projecting our way of loving onto them, which may not be correct. It isn’t correct because it hurts doesn’t it.

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