Ever Felt Empty and Anxious at the Same Time? Here’s Why!

Ever Felt Empty and Anxious at the Same Time? Here’s Why! – (1782)

Same Time

Feeling anxious and empty at the same time comes from when a pretence or act of ours has been broken. We were being what we were not, and usually it was exposed in front of others or ourselves.

We feel empty because people have been responding to our act and even liking our act, with our real self not ever being present. So, when it happens that our act is uncovered we are like left as nothing.

We feel anxious because of the possible consequences. This is because many acts or pretences are created out of fear to please people and when our act being revealed disappoints those we are trying to please it is so logical that our fear and consequently anxiety is going to spike.

Devastating for Relationships

Acts are really devastating when it comes to relationships. They end up ruining relationships.

In Gnosis, people act a lot, they tend to put on the ‘good person’, ‘spiritual act’, ‘no egos act’ or ‘ego under control act’. Even though they are good acts, any act is after all an act, that is, it is something false and things that are false always come undone, cause problems and disappoint!

End (1782).

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