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I want to be Me! - Nonsense! - (3645)

We say that, or people say that, but they don't want to be themselves. They want to be the person with that house, with that car, with that job, with those children, with that happy marriage, with that wife, with that husband, with that lifestyle etc. Or the Gnostic person wants to be the person who has the Kundalini, who has finished the Great Work, who can unfold consciously into the astral, who can meditate profoundly, who has dissolved a lot of ego...

So often we don't really want to be 'me'! But we say that we do. Contradiction.


When we decide to look at: "being me" we discover we don't really want to be that either, because it is difficult to find a real 'me'. We find that whole collection of junk inferior interior states, concepts and senses of self and more and more stuff. We deeply feel that we want to be something different.

What do we have left to do or to be. Only to empty ourselves and to make way for It. Allow that stream of presence power, that gives us life to Be in us through our essence. That is what we all really deep down want to be! 

End (3645).

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