Stagnation Due to a Lack of Definition (265)

Introduction

If you are ever stagnated in dissolving an ego check how your definition for the Being and the path is going. Your stagnation could be due to a lack of definition. You may still be wanting something from life and so subconsciously you keep this ego alive, hoping that it will be able to one day provide you with that thing from life that you want or think that you need.

Holding onto the Ego for a Reason

When we work on an ego and manage to live without it for a while but later fall back into it, swinging as a pendulum would from working to identifying with that ego there is a something that is stagnating us. There is some special factor there that we have to discover so to be able to go ahead in its dissolution.

That special factor is usually a reason of some sort, a reason for why we are not letting that ego go, a reason why we still find that ego useful. There could in reality be many reasons but the reason I am proposing now is that it could be due to a lack of definition.

There is still something from life that we want and working on that ego going towards the Being we think will mean that we can’t get what we want. We need that ego to go and get what we want and also to get what the ego wants.

The Problem is we Want What the Ego Wants

The problem is really that we and the ego want the same thing. When we separate from the ego and we want something different to the ego then the whole situation changes in us. We may think that we don’t want the ego but the truth is there is something in your subconscious that wants what the ego wants.

Renounce

We have to find out what we really want and then go and let go of those things that we and the ego want thus defining ourselves for one side, in this case the work and the Being. Knowing that the ego is wrong and that getting what the ego wants will only ruin us and that in the Being we can get what we really want in a more edifying and dignifying and truer way.

For example, we may want money, true we are not going to get heaps of money in the Being but we will get what we want the money for. We always want money for something, perhaps for security, for prestige, for praise, for luxuries, for comfort etc. Well we can get the spiritual version of all of those things in the Being and in the work.

Conclusion

Dissolving the ego is about definition and definition is a decision which involves the letting go of one thing to grab onto another thing. There is death in definition and renunciation as well.

End (265).

Comments

Kundry from Parsifal Unveiled - (3948)

The character Kundry is very unusual, and has a mysterious role in Wagner's opera: Parsifal. As master Samael explains, Kundry represents the archetype of the feminine. That mysterious yet extraordinarily powerful force that can raise a man to the heights of realisation or sink him into the abyss of failure. Kundry in the opera takes on a few different opposing roles, one where she is the temptress that seduced the king of the Holy Grail: King Amfortas giving Klingsor the opportunity to steal the Lance of Longinus and wound his side. She then helps the wounded king searching for balms to heal the wound in his side, then she is again the temptress that tries to seduce Parsifal the young knight who tries to redeem the lost lance. When Parsifal is victorious destroying the castle of Klingsor Kundry changes roles to become a servant of the holy grail and the knights of the order of the holy grail. These are all aspects of the powerful feminine force that is varied and has many differe...

What is the Kundabuffer or Kundartiguador? - (405)

Introduction Gurdjieff and Master Samael spoke much about the Kundabuffer organ and a lot of what Master Samael said is pretty clear. This post is just about going over some of what he said. In the Quinto Evangelio, Master Samael also revealed many more details which do not appear in his books. Note, the Qunito Evangelio is a two tome compilation of transcriptions of many recordings of informal talks that Master Samael had with his students. English and Spanish Terms There are these two terms Kundartiguador and Kundabuffer which refer to the same thing. Kundartiguador is Spanish and Kundabuffer is English. I believe it was Gurdjieff who first introduced these terms in his book “Beelzebub’s Tales to his Grandson”. I believe “Beelzebub’s Tales to his Grandson” was not originally written in ether Spanish or English. So these terms Kundartiguador and Kundabuffer are translations where the word “Kunda” could not be translated and the ending "buffer" could b...

When We Speak Bad About Ourselves - Because of Self-Compassion - (2963)

Even Just Thinking Negative When we just even think, let alone speak about ourselves in a negative way, thinking things like: how we are really this and that bad and that is not at all what others see, that we are in capable, worth little, know nothing, can't do this and that, fail at this and that, a liar, a dreamer the list goes on... We can be 100% sure that self-compassion is behind this because pride by itself would never allow this. In a case like this self-compassion taps into what pride hides from itself and others and exposes it. Feeling that it is doing job at ruining ourselves. Why It Does What It Does? Self-compassion does this sort of thing to avoid reprimand and to extract compassion from others. Self-compassion is about getting compassion for ourselves through others. It is set-up in relativity, using others as a reference point. Really the best thing that you can do for a person who is pitted against this ego is to ignore them, so that they can fa...

Gnostic Esoteric Study & Work Aids

Search This Blog