Express Your Worries to the Divine Mother
My Divine Mother Kundalini, I am worried about this ego that
I have. I have gone with it, identified with it and have wanted what it is has
been conditioned to give. I wanted what it could give me and in the way it was
going to get it.
When I came close to getting it, I realised that I didn’t want it! I felt nervous and scared. It was not going to be pleasant as I believed it would be. I felt that I could not do without it, that what you my Divine Mother could give me or that which my own consciousness could give me would not satisfy me.
When I came close to getting it, I realised that I didn’t want it! I felt nervous and scared. It was not going to be pleasant as I believed it would be. I felt that I could not do without it, that what you my Divine Mother could give me or that which my own consciousness could give me would not satisfy me.
I am Confused – Illuminate Me My Divine Mother
I am scared that it will come back again. I have to work to
not allow it to come back. To work hard to learn to get that deep satisfaction which
is beyond that of this ego wants. What satisfaction does this ego give me in the end
anyway?
Help me to comprehend, I am confused maybe I do not need
this satisfaction, maybe with the death of this ego, the issue of this
satisfaction will all disappear. Maybe that is where I am wrong maybe I don’t
need this at all even in a superior way. Is that true? Illuminate me my Divine
Mother, please illuminate me!
This Ego Can’t Continue
I know I can not do this again. I can not be identifying
with this ego while I am on the path. It can not be, I can not come to be able to walk the path still falling into identification with this
ego.
It has to be stopped sometime, why not now. If I stop it now
I break the cycle. If I don’t stop it now I will have to start from zero again.
What this Ego Wants
This ego only wants a feeling made real. It wants me to feel
a certain way, emotions become our reality so it wants our reality to match our
emotion. It wants to feel uplifted, special in myself, however the end result
is that it is always produces a down fall. Pain is its end result.
My Divine Mother I am well now, but the pendulum will swing,
help me to not be moved by the pendulum, not to allow myself to go with that
ego again.
Conclusion
Help my comprehension to go deep enough so to be strong
enough to not identify with that ego. May I change and may I die.
End (255).
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