First Signs of Relief from Comprehension - Fear of Blood and Medical Procedures

First Signs of Relief from Comprehension - Fear of Blood and Medical Procedures - (1898)

It is an Ego! (Hemophobia Ego – Scared of Blood)

A great sigh of relief it is to realise that it is an ego. A fragment of the essence conditioned in such a way that its thinking and feeling produces such uncomfortable symptoms all for a very specific determined reason.

It is not my brain, not my stomach, not my kidneys, not my liver, not the air I breathe, not the people around me sending me bad impressions or waves or vibes, it is not black magic, demons, bats, vampires, ghosts, etc. It is an ego that when displaced makes me return back to normal.

If it is an ego I can not get identified with it. I can wait for it to go, I can be aware behind it and know that it will pass and that nothing will happen and that I am not going to get sick I will ‘right as rain’ when it displaces.

Nothing Bad is Going to Happen After It

After working on it, with some KRIM. A realisation or understanding rose up with a corresponding relief. After such a encounter or procedure nothing bad is generally going to happen. After a blood sample, an injection, a biopsy etc. etc. we will be ok again.

This meant that in my psychology there was something there that believed that something ominous would happen after a medical procedure. A wrong belief!

Taking Refuge in the Being

As a Guide

Remembering the Being in one and surrendering and travelling inside of oneself closer to one’s inner Being brings a relief. Praying like: “may you guide me to unravel this ego that provokes such terror and uncomfortable feelings. I trust in you. As I have created you know me well and you can guide me to unravel it.”

As a Support to Pass Through it

Once again, remembering the Being in one and surrendering and travelling inside of oneself closer to one’s inner Being brings such a big soothing relief. Oh God! A deep breath out that relaxes beyond anything else.

Then to pray and with corresponding inner action “I trust in you and in my trust I know you allow me the strength to pass through whatever may come.”.

End (1898).

Comments

Kundry from Parsifal Unveiled - (3948)

The character Kundry is very unusual, and has a mysterious role in Wagner's opera: Parsifal. As master Samael explains, Kundry represents the archetype of the feminine. That mysterious yet extraordinarily powerful force that can raise a man to the heights of realisation or sink him into the abyss of failure. Kundry in the opera takes on a few different opposing roles, one where she is the temptress that seduced the king of the Holy Grail: King Amfortas giving Klingsor the opportunity to steal the Lance of Longinus and wound his side. She then helps the wounded king searching for balms to heal the wound in his side, then she is again the temptress that tries to seduce Parsifal the young knight who tries to redeem the lost lance. When Parsifal is victorious destroying the castle of Klingsor Kundry changes roles to become a servant of the holy grail and the knights of the order of the holy grail. These are all aspects of the powerful feminine force that is varied and has many differe...

What is the Kundabuffer or Kundartiguador? - (405)

Introduction Gurdjieff and Master Samael spoke much about the Kundabuffer organ and a lot of what Master Samael said is pretty clear. This post is just about going over some of what he said. In the Quinto Evangelio, Master Samael also revealed many more details which do not appear in his books. Note, the Qunito Evangelio is a two tome compilation of transcriptions of many recordings of informal talks that Master Samael had with his students. English and Spanish Terms There are these two terms Kundartiguador and Kundabuffer which refer to the same thing. Kundartiguador is Spanish and Kundabuffer is English. I believe it was Gurdjieff who first introduced these terms in his book “Beelzebub’s Tales to his Grandson”. I believe “Beelzebub’s Tales to his Grandson” was not originally written in ether Spanish or English. So these terms Kundartiguador and Kundabuffer are translations where the word “Kunda” could not be translated and the ending "buffer" could b...

When We Speak Bad About Ourselves - Because of Self-Compassion - (2963)

Even Just Thinking Negative When we just even think, let alone speak about ourselves in a negative way, thinking things like: how we are really this and that bad and that is not at all what others see, that we are in capable, worth little, know nothing, can't do this and that, fail at this and that, a liar, a dreamer the list goes on... We can be 100% sure that self-compassion is behind this because pride by itself would never allow this. In a case like this self-compassion taps into what pride hides from itself and others and exposes it. Feeling that it is doing job at ruining ourselves. Why It Does What It Does? Self-compassion does this sort of thing to avoid reprimand and to extract compassion from others. Self-compassion is about getting compassion for ourselves through others. It is set-up in relativity, using others as a reference point. Really the best thing that you can do for a person who is pitted against this ego is to ignore them, so that they can fa...

Gnostic Esoteric Study & Work Aids

Search This Blog