Scary Big Fat Ugly Pride

Scary Big Fat Ugly Pride - (2825)

Before we start working on our Pride, it is really big in all of us.

It can be so big that we believe that we are our pride. That is we are very identified with our pride. Our pride forms our identity.

It is even worse when we constantly find ourselves in a leadership position - always giving orders and directions.

When we are given an order or instruction while having such a big pride, we feel such resistance and indigence, and if we can't avoid not having to follow that order, we feel depressed or humiliated or demoted.

When we don't find a good reason to do something and to be forced to do it, is really awful for pride. So awful that we can't bring ourselves to do it.

To remedy this we must first of all see that we are not our pride, and that we are an essence.

We are not above nor below. We are not more nor are we less. To be told to do something while we see that we are an essence does not mean that we are all of a sudden less. We are the same essence with the same qualities.

We are the same still and we can still enjoy ourselves and our own company while having to do that thing that pride does not want to do.

If we see ourselves as pride, then to be told what to do something, we will see ourselves as less and as being humiliated.

A very good way to work down such an ugly and huge pride is to put oneself in the position of having to follow orders and to do something that one does not really see as worthwhile and submit to that.

End (2825).

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