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Fear Says the Work and the Being are !@#$ %^&* – (2524)

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Lowdown When we have an attack of fear the lowdown of what fear says to us is: “the work and the Real Being are fictitious and don’t work”. In such a statement we see what? Answer: distrust and skepticism! The power of this distrust comes from the quantity of belief we five to this statement. If we stop believing in such a statement which is the motto of fear, we open up ourselves to trust and that trust moving in our system displaces fear. Fight Back! The question is: “Is that really true?”. The answer is, if one has worked on themselves before, the answer is no! Because one has made changes in their life and one has arrived at results. Therefore, that is a false statement. The work works and therefore the work can transform any of the consequences inside of ourselves that we are scared of. The one in us that applies the work is our essence and behind our essence the Being in us. If we created those feelings of fear, don’t you think that we can reverse them. Im...

Division of Attention is the Natural State of the Consciousness – (2523)

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Being aware of being aware is the natural state of the consciousness. This is a very interesting statement. We can not be conscious without our consciousness attention being divided. When we consciously direct our attention then we are conscious. That is, when we know that we are directing our attention and we are watching ourselves direct our attention we are conscious. Why the Division? Because the consciousness is fed and maintained by its own focus. So to maintain our conscious state we must feed the consciousness being conscious. For example, if we are focussing on our mind, then we also need to divide our attention with one part on the mind and the other part on the conscious effort of focusing on our mind. End (2523).

Work to the Goal of Freeing a Particle of Essence Everyday – (2522)

Have as a goal everyday to free a particle of your essence. Do this by asking the Divine Mother in you to hit a particular ego you are working on with her fiery lance, and chant intently the mantra KRIM. Another way is to be very alert and catch many thoughts, question them, turn them inside out to reveal their truth and then with the help of the Divine Mother ask her to hit the ego that those thoughts belong to. We need more essence. Essence is useful for everything in us. Our inner Being needs that we have more essence. Because it is through the free essence that it can manifest and help us. It is through our essence that we our Being has space to move in us. The less essence we have the more restricted and limited is our inner Real Being. End (2522).

Love Reality More than Your Mind’s Imaginings – (2521)

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One Way to Live in Reality We don’t really live that well in reality. We prefer to live in our mind’s imaginings of reality. As well in our mind’s interpretations, rememberings, projections, conclusions, concepts, opinions etc. To learn to love reality is a way to come out of the world of our mind. To come out of the world of our mind means to awaken. It makes much more sense though to love reality than to love our mind’s version of reality. To love reality means to surpass all complaints, protests, disappointments and boredom… To come to the reality that you are not loved by a person is difficult and we prefer to protest and reverse the situation by force…But that is all sadness, hurt and violation of another’s person’s will which can only bring more pain later… To love reality is what makes more sense than anything else. Only by really being in reality can we feel gratitude what we have, what our inner Being has done for us and what others have don...

We Have to Get Serious and Decided to Work On Ourselves and Why – (2520)

Concentrated and Consistent Why is it that we have to get decided and serious in our work? Mainly because of the Laws of the Universe. In that everything requires energy to be effected, i.e. for something to be moved or transformed energy needs to be applied to it. For a human being to apply the amount of energy required to change themselves a concentrated and consistent flow of energy is needed. Why is this so? Because to change oneself requires a lot of energy. To supply this concentrated and consistent flow of energy we need psychologically speaking seriousness and decision. If very little energy was required we would not need to be serious or decided would we? Another Factor There is also another factor to take into account and it is that we are only given what we want or either deserve. So why would we apply so much effort to supply a concentrated and consistent flow of energy into something that we don’t want. The more we want something the more focusse...

Is that Thought True? An Extraordinary Help - (2519)

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Just this One Question If we ask ourselves just this one question we can help ourselves like we don't imagine. The ego projects at the best half truths and the rest are falsehoods. The thing is we believe both half truth and complete falsity, totally mechanically, and that makes our consciousness sleep. Asking ourselves the question is that true, for every thought or for at least the intense egoical thoughts, stops the mechanical believing and therefore the sleepiness of our consciousness. This can be very profound actually. It will help you to peer right through the mind and to grasp what is real in you and what is really you. Asking this question really really helps us to understand the mind and understand how it works. Just this one question opens up many doors of knowledge for us. How powerful this one question is! We have a thought about a person and an image from our memory that accompanies it. Then you ask  the question: "is that true?" ...

Don't Believe Anymore in the Doom of Fear Use Your Magic Wand - (2518)

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Over the Years This action of not believing in the ego has helped me immensely over the years, especially when it has come to the work on fear. I definitely do not want to believe anymore in what fear projects and makes one to feel. That terrible bottomless 'all has ended' feeling of pure doom and terrifying destruction, pure ensuing agonizing pain can all be felt for a few seconds but no longer do we have to chose to believe in it. No matter the situation, we can to chose to believe in what we have experienced to be true over the years. These truths have held true over the voice of fear: Here are those truths that in the face of fear I chose to evoke and believe in becasue I know them to be true and this alignment especially in the emotional centre causes fear to subside like someone has waved a magic wand. Magic Wand Nothing is as bad as it seems...Reality is always kinder than fear. Help always comes... Things change and ease off...or time hea...

Remember When in Difficulty Take Refuge in the Mother-Father - (5233)

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When... When it is, that we feel low, disappointed, physically unwell, stressed, under the hammer, impotent to change things, worried, concerned, tired, worn out and under constant obligation, etc. etc. then it is so good to take refuge with prayer and meditation in our inner Father-Mother. Perhaps even go somewhere special and quiet, and take refuge. Even when pressed for time, we must try to make the attempt to carve out a slice of time from our day, and you never know, just making that attempt may help you to find a way to take refuge. Where you can , above all renew your emotional energies and will. End (5233).

Love the Things that the Ego Hates – (2517)

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Sometimes in order to help ourselves we have to begin to teach ourselves how to love the things that the ego dislikes. Such things could be rejection, being told what to do, spoken at harshly, spend money on others, give things away or give things up etc. etc. When we begin to love something that the ego dislikes we have really truly done an amazing work of transformation. Doing this, sometimes seems like it is the only approach to get over what the ego hates. Doing this gives our efforts an emotional charge, which supports our efforts to behave in a different way when we are faced with having to do what the ego does not like doing. Obviously, there will certainly be something to love in what the ego hates. You will certainly find that there is something to love in what the ego hates. In general, there is always more of our Being in what the ego hates. End (2517).

Panic Attacks Know them Well and Say Welcome and they Start to Ease Off – (2516)

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Know Them I have had several panic attacks over a spate of a couple of years some time ago, so I know what they are about. You know they have a remedy. They in the beginning are very alarming as we really don’t know what is going on. The symptoms are so strange and intense. We think that we are going to have a heart attack or vomit or faint and we just don’t know what to do or how to control what we are feeling. The cold sweating, the nausea, the feelings of about to faint, the racing and thumping heart, disorientation and the overwhelming urge to unbutton your shirt a little and go outside to get fresh air. Well after several of them you start to fear them and that makes your life worse. You fear them even more in social situations because you know that while having a panic attack you are not yourself you are very irrational and anti-social. This makes them into a problem while the underlying cause is still there, which is a kind of fear. What You Understand ...

Why Not Wanting the Ego is Critical – (2515)

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The Will of the Ego is the Worst The strongest and most problematic part of any ego is the causal or will part of it. The will part of it is the wanting part, and often that part does not obey our mind. We can not dismantle it or overcome it with mental reasoning. It just wants, and that is what our mind can not grapple with. And it wants so compellingly and powerfully to boot… As I have mentioned here several times, only another will or the consciousness (comprehension) can reckon with the will of the ego. When we have within us the will that we do not want the ego anymore, that is such a critical conclusion to have come to. More important and critical than we imagine. When for example, we say about the ego of lust that we are really tired of being deceived, tricked and ruining ourselves and we don’t want that any more in our life then we are getting close to witnessing the start of the decline of that ego. As soon as the deep wanting based on the experie...

Why We Feel Anxiety About Someone Dying – (2514)

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A Tough One Because deep within us somewhere is a dependence on that person for some protection in life. Fear is there primarily to protect us in its strange way. So fear really screams when there is danger around or there is no protection from possible future dangers or difficulties. Our parents, loved ones, relatives, friends etc. are all a source of protection from life’s dangers and difficulties for us. This is because they love us and we feel this love and we feel deeply and insticnitively that love protects. Love also advises, guides, corrects and saves us and helps us out of any difficulty. Remedy To remedy this fear we have to see that we are capable and strong in life now and we can face and solve all the problems and difficulties with the help of our very own Being and essence. Trust in your Being and essence as being able to get you through the troubles of life! Transferring this trust to your Inner Being does not mean that you love your pa...

The ‘Bad Books’ Test – (2513)

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Most of Us Know This  There is a test or perhaps a situation of being in the bad books. Probably we have been there before at one point or another for some time. It can be a tough one. It is basically a test or situation to test or strengthen our endurance and patience in dealing with the unpleasant emotions that our own psychology generates. Some people have no problem at all moving through such a situation or test. All because their psychology does not generate uncomfortable emotions. Upset or Anxious and Why When we do have trouble it is because of our pride. The image we have of ourselves is based on how we think others perceive us. If the way we see ourselves is through our own evaluation then we will be fine in such situations. Sometimes in these situations we feel very nervous and scared. This is because we were depending on the love from others that we mainly use within ourselves for some kind of protection. So then we feel that our protecti...

Pinocchio Becoming a Donkey - Esoteric Significance - (2512)

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Very Esoteric If you ever get hold of a copy of the movie Pinocchio by Roberto Benigni you will be delighted by the esoteric significance of it all. There is a scene where Pinocchio the living wooden puppet (intellectual animal aspiring to be a man) when influenced by some bad company enters a place of never ending entertainment and fun, and after one night of freely enjoying all the pleasures offered in that place he and his friend the next morning become donkeys.  The significance of this scene is how lust and fornication, that is losing the sexual energy leads to animal degeneration. What follows for Pinocchio and his friend as donkeys is tremendous misfortune and suffering. His friend as a donkey ends up dying from exhaustion of being relentlessly overworked. This is directly a a veiled reference to the absolute fleeting pleasures of lust and fornication and the resulting long eras of bitterness and suffering (karma) that ensue. It is really amazing how the ...

Comprehension Elusive? Then Smash it Out Like Forest Gump - (2511)

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When we are having trouble comprehending something one way to go about it is to do what Forest Gump did.  When Jenny left him without telling him why and without him knowing, after being very intimate with him he went running for like 3 years, and only stopped when he finally comprehended why, or rather realised why he was running and that he didn't have to run anymore. So the Forest Gump Smash It Out goes like this, use the motor centre to act out repeatedly the opposite of the ego with determination until comprehension arrives. Just give yourself to the opposite, smashing out opposite actions to the ego until comprehension arrives. End (2511).

The Pleasure in the Work is in Unravelling the Darkness - (2510)

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The greatest pleasure of the work is shedding light into our interior using our awareness and comprehending the darkness transforming it into light - which is triumph! The work is about the arduous effort made towards triumph. In the end the work is about triumph! End (2510).  

What You Are Doing is Right for You – But Another Person Is Upset and then we Feel Unwell – (2509)

The Situation We have all probably been in such a situation many times before. Where what we are doing or have to do is something that is right for us, meaning that if we don’t do it, it would be rather cruel or wrong. It can even be something that we can’t get out of. But there is someone close to us that is just upset with it all. We know we have to do it but yet we feel so uncomfortable doing it because that person is upset with us. We say to ourselves it is something that is over and done with in a couple of hours and it would be just so nice if that person didn’t mind. The strange thing is that it is not hurting anyone, it is not hurting our spiritual work and it is ethically or morally wrong. Just that the silly jealousy, attachment, fear or self-love of the person can’t handle it. So why does another person being upset with us bother us so? Why? The answer is because we are actually dependent at some level f our mind on that person. Hard to believe but if...

So Many People Know the Teachings! But Few Do Them… - (2508)

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We come across so many people these days that have heard of Gnosis and know about the death of the ego and the transmutation of the sexual energy, but the sad thing is that they are not really applying or living those teachings. That is worse for the essence, to know and to not apply. The essence suffers greatly and the karma is heavier. This is a good reason why to eliminate curiosity. "Curiosity killed the cat" as they say. The ego that just wishes to know to prove that it can know everything and that there is nothing hidden from it is a nuisance. It does not have the essence’s best interests at heart. It does one thing good which is to bring the essence into contact with the knowledge and that is all, but it then does not follow through into action so to know more. It just stops there and gives up, thinking that knowing is doing and being. End (2508).

A Double Edged Sword – the More Gnosis Spreads the Less Time we Have – (2507)

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It is so good that Gnosis spreads and more and more people come into contact with Gnosis. Because that way more and more people are given an opportunity to decide to work on themselves for their own and the planet’s betterment. However, as everything is dual, the down side of this, is that the more people come into contact with Gnosis and more and more people after receiving Gnosis will have to make a decision: to work on themselves or to not work on themselves. Undoubtedly, the result will be to not work on themselves. And so then it becomes more and more clear that humanity is not going to work on themselves, transmute their energy and help others then it is easier for the Law to decide to accelerate things. Conclusion But as missionaries we must not stop spreading the light of Gnosis. Because there are always essences whose Monads are waiting to come into contact with the knowledge to realise themselves. So many things are a double edged sword. Then what can we ...

Hydra of Lerna and the Intellectual Subconscious - (2506)

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Intellectual Subconscious I'll go straight to the point with this post. It is in the second labour of Hercules where Hercules slays the Hydra of Lerna, which effectively Master Samael says, is where the intellectual subconscious is eliminated or cleared. I never understood what that meant, but after asking a few questions, I have a bit more insight. So once again, what I am presenting here are notes or summaries of some discussions I have had with m cubed (a new version of m.m.m for you) about what really goes on in a person after this labour is completed.  The subconscious is a basement, it is a structure that is a part of us, just as a basement is a part of any building or house. What we can do though is to clear or empty out the subconscious just like we can empty out the basement of a house, but if we were to destroy the basement the house may collapse. So here in this labour the intellectual part of the subconscious is cleared out. There are 49 regions ...

Nimean Lion - (2505)

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First Labour of Hercules Before I start, these are all notes that I have taken from a Herculean Labourer. Please note they are not my knowledge. Myth has it that Hercules ordered by King Eurytheus has to find, face and defeat the Lion of Nimea and bring back the hide of the slain Lion to the King. The lion of Nimea is a monstrous lion of monstrous proportions in both size and strength, and is one who has an impenetrable hide. No sword, arrow or spear has ever broken through its hide. It is said that the lion of Nimea is the result of either of two parents: the son of the union of Zeus and Selene (the Moon) where the Lion dropped down from the Moon, or is either the son of Typhon and Echidna (the parents of all the monsters) and who is also the brother of Cereberus and Orthos which are the famous three and two headed dogs. Hercules before reaching Nimea comes across an old man that says if Hercules did not return after 30 days then he, the old man will make an offeri...

Yearn, Pray and Love the Being Within While You Transmute - (2504)

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Whiten the Waters The key to whiten the waters is to transmute and while transmuting focus, concentrate and respect the Being within, then yearn to be closer to the Being within, to be closer to Its light, to Its peace, to participate in It, to be with It, and to forward Its Realisation... Then that is really not complete, one will feel naturally like praying and then like loving the Real Being, and doing that integrates the sexual energy that you are transmuting, into all of you and into your Being. Such a thing can make our transmutation an integrating, completing, holistic Being like experience and action.  End (2504).

Why What We Fear Happens? - (2503)

Because of the Will Trapped in Fear There is a lot of will trapped in fear. It is the will trapped in fear that causes and forces us to feel fear and it is also what works to make what we feel afraid of to happen so that we can feel fear, and that we can believe further in the role of fear. Trust is also a causative power, it too like will causes and forces things to happen. A Remedy So what is the remedy? To not believe in any of the thoughts of fear. To trust in your Being as the one who will protect you and make things bearable and workable. The important thing is to say to yourself that your body and things don't need to be touched or changed by fear, they can work themselves out. It is not the role of our fear to do so and they have their Beings and many other influences and forces that are better at fulfilling that function of righting themselves then our fear.  End (2503).

Love is when there is Full Freedom in the Heart – If there is Any Pain or Sadness there is No Freedom – (2502)

When the heart is totally free, that is it does not need anything from the other, it does not need to be important to another and there is no pain there of not being important, and there is no angst of having to accept something from another, then our love is one with less pain and is of quality that is liberating and free. When the heart is not free there is debt and there is some kind of needing and some kind of dislike mixed in with the part that loves. Our love is usually a mixture, both loving and a touch painful, or sad in the background.  This is because we are still a mixture and because more specifically we still need something and we are not completely fed directly from our essence. End (2502).

As An Absolute No One is Important – Realise and Accept, then Freedom Comes then there is Love – (2501)

We Always Want to Be Important to Someone This desire is one that brings great suffering to so many people. Sometimes the emotion of it is so intense we are really stopped in our tracks. Filled with emotions of a gapingly empty, despairing and painful type of emotions, looking into the distance and our attention and mind lost in the worry of all that it will mean...  This suffering is remedied by using the pain of not being important to someone to go inwards and remember the Being dwelling within and really really making the Being in us important to us and really really loving the Being within us. Sometimes when a person sees that they are not important to someone or anyone they suffer unspeakably and can get very depressed and worse… The very interesting point is that in the absolute sense really no one is important to anyone and we are not important to anyone and no one is important to us. I don’t write this in a pessimistic tone or sad tone but in one that is r...

A Tradie and His Music Box – (2500)

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Judged Him Wrongly Once a tradie came to my parent’s house to some tiling and he had forgotten his music box. So he asked if I had one. I did and so I lent it to him. Though while I was getting it for him, I thought: “these tradies are weak guy, they can’t do their job without music”. A Tradie’s Bliss of No Mind When he turned it on and the music started playing he said: “Thanks, if I don’t have music I keep thinking. I just need something to stop thinking.”. I then thought again: “he is weak, he can’t control his mind and make it go quiet.”, I never really understood him until recently. It is really bliss to work manually with the mind turned off. It is such a pleasure – progress just flows happily out of you, everything becomes so harmonious, no resistance and no negativity, no tiredness... If music is what can help us turn off our mind it is valid. Who does it hurt? Conclusion What we don’t really know we judge, and further to that we mostly judge wrongly. ...

Jealousy Rule Book – (2499)

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Introduction I think that this part of the ego of jealousy is probably the worst part. Removing this part, which I call the rule book makes a big difference when it comes to weakening the strength and structure of this ego. The “I’s” of jealousy often refer to the rule book and manifest because a rule has been written in the rule book. If there is no rule to go by there is no protest. The rule book constitutes the rigidity and toughness of jealousy. It also makes up the justice part of jealousy, which leads us to come to the wrong conclusion that it is all so unfair... The strange thing is that the one who is receiving the wrath of jealousy finds it unfair as well, "why should I get hammered for just smiling and saying hi, that is not a crime". Also it is not fair on our own inner Being to forget our Being in place of the green eyed monster. Rule Book Examples He/she should not be talking to him/her. He/she should not buy him/her a gift. He/sh...

Jealousy is Not Just a Normal and Natural Way of Thinking – It is An Ego with Its Own Logic – (2498)

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Reason Why We Never Work on It A reason why we never work on jealousy is because we see it so normal and natural to want to protect our relationship. We see it as logical, natural, consequential thinking, not as thinking that has a flaw in it. We even see it as a right and a duty. As long as we think that way it will be very difficult to dissolve jealousy. When we contemplate the dissolution of jealousy we often experience fear. The remedy or balm to fear is always trust. By trusting in all the ways we can give our system the space to contemplate the dissolution of jealousy. Trusting the Real Being in us is a big part of the balm that heals the suffering of jealousy. The Real Being in us put us into this relationship, and so trust that the relationship serves the Being’s purposes and if it does not, the Being will remove us from it at the due time and provide for us not being in that relationship anymore. So then we do not need jealousy to be watching ...

Jealousy Makes Social Encounters Something Rough and Awkward – (2497)

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The “I’s” of jealousy make social events awkward for the jealous person and plain awful for the other person in the relationship. When jealousy intervenes in an event the overall feel is of something being roughly micro-managed, dealt with and shut down. Why? Because jealousy is rough, abrupt, controlling and intense by nature. It is some ways a very masculine ego? Why because it derives from lust and pride. Jealousy likes to be also be pro-active and control the social event to prevent it making appearance inside the person either invisibly or visibly. Jealousy dispels grace, gratitude, appreciation, fluid free movement and introduces tension, fear, intense scrutiny and analysing, anger and ill-will. End (2497).

Prometheus – Without Him and What He Gives We Would Be Without Hope – (2496)

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Indeed the greatest gift to humanity was the fire from Prometheus. I find it useful to know the Greek myth of Prometheus. The conclusion that I draw from this myth is that the fire has a very spiritual high source and without it we would be as the myth says just lumps of clay without the possibility to be like the Gods or to aspire to be akin or similar to them. It also gives us an account of why we have the ego. It is said that because Zeus believed that man should not have the fire, man was given the ego, symbolised by Pandora’s box. What I have done here is just a copy and paste of a good recounting of the myth. Excerpt " Prometheus and Epimetheus were spared imprisonment in Tartarus because they had not fought with their fellow Titans during the war with the Olympians. They were given the task of creating man. Prometheus shaped man out of mud, and Athena breathed life into his clay figure. Prometheus had assigned Epimetheus the task of giving the ...

Sword from the Stone – Fire from Sex – (2495)

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Fire of the Being Each part of the Being has its fire. The fire of the Divine Mother and the Third Logos is the sexual fire. The Fire of the Intimate Christ and Chockmah is the redeeming fire of light. The Fire of the Kether is the fire of truth and the full restoration of life. Sexuality Leads to the Fire Sexuality treated according to the principles of fire, not the principles of extinguishing the fire (we know it as fornication and losing the sexual energy) leads to the first level of fire. Where we first really tangibly physically, psychologically and esoterically encounter the fire is through sexuality. That is through the supra-sexuality. Which is represented by drawing the sword from the stone. The sword is the fire and the stone is sex. End (2495).

Fire Has Its Principles by Which We Can Prepare for It – (2494)

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Fire Has Its Principles When we spend a lot of time lighting fires in your home’s fire place, you can, if you are observant enough, see that physical fire has its principles. Basically, fire warms, sets alight, covers, devours, purifies, transforms, liberates and ascends. We understand that we need the fire, that is we need to ignite the fire in us, the fire of Kundalini, and that we also need to operate as fire, that is liberate, purify and transform ourselves. The purpose of this post is to show ourselves how by studying fire we can know how we must prepare ourselves to receive it. Some Principles 1. Provision of a Spark 2. Spark Ignites the Volatile 3. Heating Up and Drying Out of the Less Volatile and Dense Matter 4. Breathe - Air Flow 5. Triangular Geometry 6. Provision of Space for Expansion Our Preparation We can appreciate that for any fire to be lit, there has to be preparation. There must be some volatile material of enoug...