Confusing
This is an important observation actually. Sometimes we feel
sad and empty or even anxious and we don’t associate that sadness or anxiety with
jealousy. Do we?
Mainly because we think jealousy only has one set of
emotions, like an angry resentful type of flavour. But that is only a part of
it, definitely not the full spectrum of emotions that comes from this defect.
This is because a defect has many egos attached to it, and jealousy
is indeed a defect. One of the seven capital defects. It is more than an “I”,
it is a conjunction of “I’s”.
Spectrum of Emotions
First of all it starts with a protest of the unfair. Then it
goes to like a resentment or distrust against the one who we are in a
relationship with. Then ill will or a kind of annoyance or anger is felt
towards the other person we are not in a relationship with.
These feelings develop over a while and then one day in a social
event they manifest so overwhelming intensely that we feel overwhelmed, and
then we feel like a kind of anxiety because we suddenly we the feeling we are
not in control anymore.
Then we worry that we will loose it again, and loosing it
will definitely drive the person we are in a relationship with away. That worry
extends to be worried about being abandoned and the worry turn to fear. The
fear then leads to a kind of sadness or emptiness where we sink into a kind of despair.
End (2472).
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