Are we going to Fail Again?

Are we going to Fail Again? - (1004)

Introduction

Sometimes deep within us we feel that we won't be able to hold the height of our spirituality and will fall again.

We feel deep down we will go up to a point and then fall.

A Cause for this Feeling

Well there is a cause for this feeling or suspicion. There is a strong ego in us that wants to act and if it does we know that we will get into trouble.

How this Feeling Changes

If we work on that ego and make it weaker, we will feel all together differently regarding that feeling that we will fall or that we will have to fall in the future.

Importance of Will

What is of most importance is that we free our will, that is we have more will that that ego has. Because it is the will of this ego that says from deep within us that it wants us to fail or to stay spiritually low so that it can have free reign to do what it wants, and indeed our falls are recurrences and so in each of our recurrences there is will trapped by our own karma and that trapped will is programmed to fulfil that recurrence. And what is scary, is that within us, is this will that is trapped and programmed and it makes us to feel like we want to go through with its programming or commitments. So we end up with a huge battle of wills the free will that does not want to fail and the trapped will that does, and is programmed to.

The Weaker the Less Danger

The weaker that ego is, the less hungry it will be and so it won't be calling out within us for food that can only be gotten if we fail. So this is quite an interesting point. The weaker it is also the more will we have to command it and change the balance of forces and therefore that feeling of having to fail in the future weakens because we now have more power to set our destiny and we are actually more established in our destiny that does not include us failing.

Weakening this ego and freeing our will from inside of it will definitely change things inside of us.

Basically it is lust and pride in us that want us to fall or fail.

Needing Experience Yet

Sometimes too we think we need experience and experiences so as to be able to finally go up. Well with the dissolution of that ego we go deeply into it and deep into the abyss and we learn and experience a lot and so really we don't need to fall or fail to get all this experience that we think we have to have.

Throwing the Stone

There is also that about the Being in us throwing the stone. That is something that is in the hands of the Being and we don’t feel that so easily especially when we don’t have the stone yet.

Anyway, the more the Being throws the stone, the quicker He regains its or reiterates it.

End (1004).

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